-[mEssenger-fr0m-da starS].`

*// last entry

2005-07-25T18:50:00.000-07:00

heys heys. so sorrie fer l0sin out in contact with this bl0g fer a super l0ng time. and kinda sad that this will be my last entry as well. =)
life's been great. being stil so cl0se knitted with my sistas. sick. bJ stil =) life in sp is stil ever vibrant and of c0z d stiff competition dat u gotta face almost every other dae. my family is all well and keane is definitely rising up 2 his capabilities as a pr0misin young chap in future. =) anw i'm signin off here frm n0w. n u guys out dere who haf my links.. do remove it yea? hEes take care peeps. =)
*muaCkies

*// l0ng l0ng onE

2005-05-27T02:20:00.000-07:00

dEarest diaryx.

came back from camp since last week. d indonesia trip. making a consecutive 3 days visits to the school. and spending nice times with my sp peeps. sistas. n cl0se peeps. =)

well camp was definitely fun! hahas. my group was espran0! hEes. had super nice group mates n 2 fantastic gLs [mac n vict0r]. had t0tal fun over there. did amazing race and d flat painting and ice-breaking games. felt pretty b0nded with them since the first day. =) hMms. went over to poly marina on d 2nd day. did kayakin in d super bright and sunny yet h0t morning . [erms. pard0n me for the spelling error. =X] played captain's ball fer like abt 2 hrs during the super h0t h0urs in the afternoon. but during the b0th times my gr0up w0n. =X was t0tally sun-burnt after that. hahas. felt that i t0ok over xianie's "monkey butt" reputation. l0ls. had bbq then and kinda had dis "scary" experience. hahas. but thank g0d bel bel n bJ was there fer me den. thanks blury king n bJ. =) hMms. had a hilarious night event later on. the "bap0k night". l0ls! had tremendous fun dat night. laughin out our lungs as the guys from each group wore revealing clothes. acting like 1 during the interviewing session. =X l0ls! hMms. had a nice chat with m0re dan 6 gLs and other 2 freshies wh0 were usmani and samantha! =D hMms. played truth or dare till 5+am among us. hahas. asked l0tsa qns abt each other and other dumb stuff. hahas. realise my seniors are a great bunch and so are my other FO campmates. hMmms.became very groggy the next dae th0. since we're suppose to wake up at 7 plus. sam n i were like practically draggin ourselves outta d slping bag. bud din really felt tired after when we reached sp again. had telematch and b4 dat we're suppose 2 do some preparations fer our talent time but i was t0o tired so i jus slept on the table fer half an hour. oh yea we had a bowling session 2gether as well th0. =) had fun then. esp when we're on cheering each other on whether u're on my team or norts. pretty nice yea? =) hMms. had telematch and sometime fer our preparations again. and in d end my group was like producing crap. l0ls. bud mac manage 2 save it later which i shall n0rt sae aniting anymore. =X hMms. but thank g0d we din g0rt last fer it. =D had a disco nite later and i was like halfway thru it i g0rt totally tired out. went out and managed 2 chat with a few new met f0 campmates and seniorz. hMmms. went fer a night walk later. kinda a few spooky experience th0. i meant outta d 4 spooky places we went. dere were 3 events happening in 3 different places. l0ls. hMms. shall nort comment further on dat as well. =X couldnt stand it anymore by 3 plus in d morning after when d night walk was done and i went offta 2 slp.

br0ke camp after all the prize presentation at abt 10+am n dad came and fetch me. reached home after lunch at ard 12 plus and i went offta slp immediately till 8+ in d nite b4 heading fer dinner. slept at 12 plus after dat 11+ d nxt m0rnin. guess i was really shagged outta den. left sing fer indonesia ard no0n after meeting y0ng k0r fer lunch wif my parents. treated him to tCc. b4 b0arding the ferry. =X went over there with him and yea g0rt ready all d preparations fer d nxt dae. hMms. and i whipped up dinner fer the 6 adults dere. ATTENTION! THEY WERE PERFECTLY FINE AFTER EATING IT TILL THE NEXT DAY! =D hMms. came back in d evening and i was feeling so tired out again since i slept fer less dan 5 h0urs there. l0ls. hMms. slept at 9pm+ dat nite once i reached home. =X hadta w0ke up early the next m0rnin at 7 plus again th0. =(

went fer d religious day camp on sun and realised jia yi n jin zhi were n0tti gals man! hahas. had zixuan into my group den. felt that she and jiayi reali share a very harmonious sisterly b0nd despite dem cing each other everydae at h0me. =X hMms. br0ke camp at abt 4plus n0on. went to marine parade withe keane's family wif my family and granny. fell down while i was riding the kid scooter den. and it was a dumb fall th0 when i come to think of it. l0ls. =X and yes my leg was t0tally difigured now! had l0tsa scratches on my b0th legs during the telematch and now i had more after the fall. -.-!! nvm. i'm trying means and ways to heal it asap. =D
but if u're had any ways 2 d0 it asap mus tell me okies?=X

hMmms. turned in super early dat nite as well. 9+pm record again. =X

hMms. went to sch earli in d morning with gene on tues morning.heard all the different kinda t0ks. and during lunch i sneak off with my FO campmates. hahas. felt pretty guilty t0 leave gene at the back th0. =X hang ard d club to chit chat with more dan a bunch of 10+ freshies cum seni0rs. hahas. t0ked abt d scandals of the camp. *ahem. l0ls! and other topics. had a hilarious time while we're v0ting whereta g0 and all. sMac is indeed happening man! *r0ck on! =D

hMms. realised i'm in d same class as usmani! hahas. d way he acts is exactly like fauzi man! mish dat chap l0tsa th0. =X hMms. in d end we headed down to plaza sing b4 heading to meriden fer p0ol sessions. al0ng d bus we're all having fun taking pics and j0kin here and dere. =) hMms. din realli knew h0wta play den. sh0 yee aung.juliet.b0on pin and i headed to ps again t0 sh0p. hahas. =X was l0oking fer a gift fer dis peep of mine and i think i kinda gonna get it. but i nid money th0. =(

went back 2 c0llect my stuff frm usmani. sh0t a couple of shots den t0o. =X hahas. j0sh and usmani was kind enuff to let mi play whenever i want t0. hEes. anyway i rushed off t0 meet kEn later. had dinner at plaza sing b4 heading to teach khang kai. hahas. felt sh0 bad dat he hadta send mie dere again each time i g0.hMms.anw dat chap reali had learning disability in eng wise. still grinding my head on howta make him absorb better. bud felt bad dat he gort a tiny whack on his palm by mie when he was nort concentrating den. n it was a cane. moreover i think his mom hit him again after i left. =(

hMmms. went 2 accompany mummy to have her dinner and headed h0me. chatted with pretty b0i fer a while b4 i turned in. =)

felt super tired now. shall update d remainin daes tml. =X

*// camp

2005-05-17T00:37:00.000-07:00

g0nna go fer camp s0on!! hEes. gonna disappear int0 da thin air~ =)

xianie : hEes. i gonna mish yer l0tsa 2~! too bad after when i'm back from camp i'll be leaving singap0re on d exact day. =( and its like after u're back from camp and i'm leaving. but it d0esnt s0und as bad since we met up t0day! =) hEes. take care of yourself yea? hMms. meanwhile u can listen to the s0ng i'm sending you right now when u mish mie!! =D

tiNg : if aniting happens again when i'm nort ard this few days you must find xianie yea? BUT must keep mi updated!! =D d0n miss me 2 much too as well alrights? =P d0n try and keep things to youself yea? h0pe yer have an enjoyable time in your "new" environment in ur r0om alrites? =)

aud : hMmms. h0ls are approaching! so dese few daes u better don be slacking!! =X give way at times to jL yea? =) hahas. remember n0tta watch the movie which i reserved already!! =X anything can msg mi yea? but i cant guarantee if there is reception there. l0ls. but i'll try and reply asap okies? *huggies

est : keep mugging w0rs!! i'll be here r0oting fer yer!! =D meanwhile thanks fer helping me 2 upl0ad da new s0ng in my bl0g! =) when i'm back i'll be expecting more pics of myuki from yer yea? =) take care l0tsa 2 alrites jies? =)

yiN : hEes. if u miss during dis wh0le wk you can listen to the song i send u!! =P i noe u'll b perfectly fine with you sweetie ba0bei. bud u if u need help you must find some1 to spill your w0es okies? anything can als0 msg mie w0rs. will try and reply yer asap. =)

bEl bEl : hahas. if u happen to read dis i wanna tell yer i cant b your fren fer all the way to 24th. =( wont be cing yer online fer a l0ng time. bud keep an eye on lit' benn0 yea? but you can d0n friend me onli fer dis period of time okies? =)

kEn : hEes. u better keep your hp on in the nite! well dat is if i can get 2 call yer den. l0ls. anyway take g0od care of yourself yea? *huggies dearie. =)
oh yea! u noe wad shld u reserve fer me meanwhile! =X

dEarest diaryx. i sounded like i'm gonna b leaving fer a l0ng time. bud its kinda l0ng fer me since i cant contact dem fer a week!! =( but i'll be seeing all my cl0se peeps soon after 24th! =D hEes. i'll still be crossing my fingers if there is reception there since my cuzzin jus t0ld mie he isnt sure if there is over dere. =( hMmms. jus now when all my jies were telling mie 2 take care and dey will miss me and all dat i kinda felt like tearing th0.
=( hMmms. bud 1 wk will past s0on yea? =)

p.s. i'm ol enuff to take care of myself!! =D

*// crapping

2005-05-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

dearest diaryx.
hahas. just finish crapping with bJ. realised our friendship can really cover up all the distances and stuff. despite not contacting for like a l0ng time but the moment when we settled down to have a good talk. heart matters will automatically be poured out and of course thinkin of the lamest topics to share. =P
have been chatting online till late in the nite recently. *yawns. and i jus finished up with 3 guys. kEn.bel bel and bJ. and their replies are always damn fast! hahas. and i'm always laughing like hell in front of the com like an idiot. =X bud nvms. i enjoy their company 2 bits.
haven been seeing my sisters online recently as well. except yiN ba? hahas. wonder what are they busy with? =/ hMmms...
oh yea! i l0ve the kingdom of heaven to bits man! went to watch it with kEn,aldis and 2 other of their friends last tues. aldis find it b0ring! but i lurve it instead! hEes. altho the setting is like troy [altho i don deny thats why i'm so attracted to watch it at first =X] find it esp touching esp when the king was dying soon and the chivalry of the knights and all.
=)
went to sp recently for the camp briefing. realise dat many of my camp mates are from the same course. =) n the no. of gals in my course kinda out- numbered the guys there. saw a few hunks there as well!! esp the president of the sMa club. he's gorgeous man! =X bud too bad. he's in his third year. gonna graduate soon. =( he's tall! he has 6 pacz! he's tan! but most importantly...he's charming!! awww~~~ l0ls!! i sounded like some kinda bimbo. =X anyway after briefing on the stuff to bring and all we're dismissed. was suppose 2 meet ken den. but was feeling groggy den. so i hadta cancel it in d end. wanted to get 2 grandma's place to rest but i was dragged out in d end by j0e ma. sent keane to school before heading to l0t1 to deposit a check. bought some stuff for grandma to eat and bought a top for myself again. l0ls. okok. i noe i'm a great spender. =X had dinner after a 2hrs plus l0ng nap and came h0me. =)
sent dad off yesterdae. =) things were pretty hectic since he's going off in a group with more than 20 plus people? hahas. anyway jas wasnt dere. =( t0t could see her there since fionna jie is leavin with dad. nvms. hMms. headed 2 t2 to have tea with my mom at coffee bean b4 heading to teach k.k.
realise k.k is great with maths. understanding addition and subtraction within an hour. hahas. and his focus for maths is definitely l0nger than for eng and chinese. -shakie head- received news from wanshi that she gort 79 for paper 2. expect her to get abt 75 or lower but she performed better than what i expected. =) i mean since zhi ha0 whose eng standard nvr go below 95 could get 85 this time which meant the paper is tough? *shrugs. bud i've done my best to help her this time. =)
after tuition i went to eat steamboat with delvin daddy and his family al0ng with mummy. l0ls. ate a l0t that night. and i meant a l0t!! even the waitress commented that we had a big appetite. =X well we chatted over dinner and i laughed like hell or rather d loudest. delvin daddy kept cracking stupid j0kes den and i scalded my both hands as a result. *sniff.
went over to mac to continue chatting since the place is gonna close den. and i finally get to eat the yogurt!! =D
well headed home after dat and i chatted till 2 b4 heading to bed. =X
w0ke up by weil0ng's msg in d noon. stupid chap. =P hMms. den msged him fer awhile b4 i went 2 d0 some HOUSEWORK!! c dat my dearest sistaz??! i did HOUSEWORK!! *nose pointing towards the sky* =P
went fer religious class in d late afternoon till 9 plus in da nite. *yawns.

opps. i br0ke my promise 2 pretty b0i again. its 2 plus now. l0ls.

*// my precious

2005-05-13T03:00:00.000-07:00

dEarest diaryx.
so sorry. my com have been down recently. and somehow it w0rked miraculously this morning. =)
anyway life have been great for me. realised time is a great healer for pain. didnt really t0ok that advice from my friends then. but anyway i realise i'm facing more to it now. and i felt those mixed up feelings have subsided gradually and i'm now l0oking things at a more optimistic view. =)
oh yea. i've been reading as well.windows for the crown prince. it's kinda a quite heavy book. about this teacher, Elizabeth Gray Vining teaching the crown prince of japan. the content is kinda heavy though. but its definitely an eye-opener for me. =)
life been great for me. as usual teaching khang kai. and i kinda suspect that he has some kinda learning disability. i mean his focus ability is very short. and i meant very. anyway its very satisfying though. i mean despite having to go through with him several times using several methods on some vocab,at the end of the day when you realised he's absorbing at the point of time i really felt my efforts were paid off. =)
haven been seeing my sisters much though. xianie is in camp. ting is with aaron.est had to revise her work. yiN busy with her sch starting activities. aud in school. nvm. i'll call them 2 watch house of wax on mon. alrites jiEs? hMms. saw aud in sch on wed. went 2 c0llect d cert with b0on hou and her. hahas. that chap is still the same. still as noisy as ever and i'm still as loud as ever! hahas. anyway we chatted with many teachers. like mr neo. ms justina. ms lim. mr chiam. the office staff. mr aw. mr mansor =) and we t0ok great pains 2 l0ok for our dearest mr neo then! hahas. almost walked finish every part of the school 2 l0ok for him. anyway we went 2 our ex 4F classroom 2 t0ok pictures as well!! hahas. jus the 3 of us fooling around in an empty classroon. but it brought back many memories tho. like how lani always updated the board every morning. the way the teachers always posed around as they teach. the eventse happening in the class and other precious recollection. =) had total fun time with them man! 4f r0cks!! u guys are really one of the greatest bunch of peeps i'll remember for life man!
oh yea. i'm done with my job since tues. =X finally all the accounts are closed and i'm freed! okiEs. so after my camp on 17th-21th all peeps out there are free 2 call me out! =D was intending to organise another outing for my sistas again. =)
went out with kEn too as well. been to queensway to shop around. hahas. he's a pretty good shopping company too. =X spotted this bag n shades. think i gonna get it after my camp. yups yups. anyway i ended up spending more dan him! his intention was to get clothes there while i'm jus suppose 2 b accompanyin him. but i ended up spending more dan him there. hahas. somebody shoot me for that. =X bought lotsa stuff recentli. pants from gior. 2 t0ps. a jeans skirt which i lurve 2 bits! hahas. kEn actually bargained for me!! =X hEes. anyway after that we headed to watch bJ's performance along with felicia. it was his graduating piece for his drama lesson. and i'm really very impressed with the actors/actresses. and bJ's effort really paid off this time!! well done pal! =D we had late dinner ard 10 plus at mos after the performance . bJ had to do his evaluation so he didnt manage to join though. but anyway we had a fantastic time without him too. =X while we're eating felicia kept crapping along with kEn. and we kept harping on the "feeling" issue. l0ls. left dere at 11 plus and headed to take a mrt from there. didnt realise somerset is still so crowded after 11. moreover its a weekdae the next day? hahas. anyway i only managed 2 reached home at 12 plus that day.
oh yea. i went out with benno as well. he's growing up tho. more consistent in his way of doing things? hahas. anyway we headed town that day to get keane's birthday gift. yup yup. t0ok neo-prints with him that day as well. hahas. we had some weird poses den as well. =X anyway he has a new phone! hmmphs! never mind. i'm waiting for xmas! daddy actualli pr0mise to get me a new hp for xmas!=D ~wEee!
daddy al0ng with his peeps will be leaving fot bangkok tomorrow and we'll only be back on the 18th. i'll nort b able to fetch him then. since i'm in camp in some other island? hahas. bon voyage wors ol dad! =)
i'm living on fine. and i love my new life. =)
[xianie.ting.aud.est.yiN.sher - sistas since 2001] =)

bEl bEl. i know maybe you'll never get to read this. but i just hope if you d0 get to read. i just wanna let you know u've been a fantastic friend.altho i cant help you in certain issues of heart matters. but i do hope i be like wad you did to me. assuring me and giving me all the comfort you can. =) jia u ba! u've started your new lifestyle well and i'll be there. anyway i think u should should stop thinkin the teacher is boring tho! =P blury bel bel!!
l0ve, yours lit' shery. =)

*// thats when i l0ve you.

2005-05-08T15:58:00.000-07:00

hMms. was feeling so confuse recently. about whatever dats happening around me. n my feelings. hahas. h0nestly i felt sh0 numb now diaryx. i mean after d0se tedious months. n h0w i pulled through till n0w. getting on with life. and i finally settled things in place. my emotions getting more sorted out more and i learn how 2 deal with it sl0wly and letting go.

but jus before things were m0ving smoothly. siCk t0ld me about how he felt and all. and dat marks d end of our friendship. i donno how l0ng will i get 2 see him again. he said things changed which i d0n reali noe wad isiz. hahas. mayb communication break down?

hMms. bud i guz i jus wanna tell him " siCk. thanks fer all d moments. when i felt d first fresh pain n being totally un-motivated 2 d0 anything. u're alwaes dere 2 encourage me n letting me feel ur presence around me.. so strongly. yea i miss d times 2. u beat me. i beat u. jus a call and we're off 2 some place 2 eat. d0se crazy times when we know we're both broke bud still insisted on eating d0se pricey stuff. d0se times when we're on d travelling journey. d stuff we talked abt. teasing here n dere. sharing our heart matters. headin 2 changi jus fer no reason. hahas. telling each other our childhood times n other things. but things are never d same now i guz? well if fate all0w we'll meet again yea? take care my dear pal. i don deny i'm still missing ur presence ard me and its a l0t a l0t.anw i jus wanna apologise fer wad i've done dat time 2. *huggies"

hMms. diaryx. dere is this friend 2..who entered my life recently. hahas. cant believe i felt numb bud yet i could still miss some1. kinda contridicting huh? hMms. didnt expect my stupid comment abt him durin our firz meeting could resulted in our relationship now. n guz wads d qns. " is dat person dere a boi or a girl?" hahas. and pretty s0on things started happenin so fast. we're getting 2 know each other better. hMms. d0se times we spent 2gether are very sweet n heart-warming. n yes i agree 2 wad he said. " i found a love dat is nort call l0ve." he's d firz guy i felt so weird within. i mean i'm like when d firz time i see some1. i'll immediately know whether i wanna get 2 n0e him better or norts. n i chose d nort route fer his case. bud things started turnin otherwise. bud i don haf d kinda feeling fer him like fer sB or kelvin. its jus so weird n kinda disturbin 2 fer no unknown reason.hahas bud anw both of us had agreed 2 leave things dis way. i mean its d best yea? dere'll no start n dere'll b no ending. =) jus a nice n simple friendship? *huggies

*// tired

2005-05-07T14:26:00.000-07:00

feeling super tired n0w. *yawns. wanted 2 slp at 1 plus yst. bud ended up "t0n" d whole nite. l0ls.

hMms. thurs. worked like hell again. den waited fer mummy till 6 plus. hMms. came h0me 2 settle d thingy fer d online b0okin fer d air tickets which we meddle with it till 2 plus in d morning d previous dae. -.- hMms. den went fer uncle's ong's mom funeral till 12 plus. =)

hMms. fri. managed 2 finish my w0rk at 3 plus n b0ss all0w me 2 g0 h0me earli. =D hMms. went 2 meet up bJ in jE. went 2 delifrance. hMms n went 2 jE library later 2 haf our 2nd round of f0od. =p l0ls. chatted like hell n xtremely l0ud ever since we met up. n ppl were like l0okin. bud we din reali give a damn. =X hMms. accompanied him 2 somerset fer his rehearsals. yups yups. reali enjoyed tremendousli when i'm with him. hMms. kinda spill everythin abt how i felt abt wadeva dat has happen which i din xpect myself 2. i mean i t0t i could like keep everything under d covers n everythin will b alrites n n0rt lettin a soul noe n no1 did so far until yst. l0ls. bud i realise i'm silly afterall d t0king. =X well dats bj i guz. d kinda i guy i don like 2 c. bc0z den i n0e i cldnt keep things 2 myself anim0re. *shrugs. bud i lurve his hair! awww! sh0 boyish l0ok n kinda ruggart kinda. bud 2 bad d hairstyle is on him n nort other guys. if n0rts...hiak hiak. i'll pounce on dem!! l0ls =X anw headed 2 teach k.k. afte dat

diaryx.d0 u noe k.k has magic powers? l0ls. he was suppose 2 d0 this colouring of a tooth. n in front of us dere was dis pic of him with a missing tooth. imagine him telling me how he transfer dat tooth on d colourin sheet. l0ls. n when i was helpin him wif his hmwk yst frm sch, he was suppose 2 write "mama" [chinese character].l0ls. n he ended up writing it until very stressed up. l0ls. he kept scratching his head n his face was like all crumpled up. =X kinda pity him bud his writings don seems 2 l0ok right. s0 i hadta erase n ask him 2 write again n again. =X

went 2 changi immediately after tuition. 2 send g0dpa off. yups yups. he's off 2 h0lland fer 3 mths. hMms. chatted with him n vanessa at c0ffee bean den. =) n g0sh! dat young lady g0rt such a nice fossil watch fer 138!! arrgh! d watch was super nice!! =( hMmphs! 2 bad my pay was n0rt as high as hers. =( hMms. after dat i wanted 2 g0 n eat supper den. sh0 we decided 2 take a cab 2 aunty susan dere 2 eat r0ti prata!!l0ls. realise i've been eating a l0t. bud nort exercising. =P hMms. was walkin al0ng d rd side of d airport bc0z we cldnt find d taxi stand dere! n we kept waving n waving bud none st0p of dem st0pped. finally 1 did!! *phew. while we're on d way dere d taxi uncle xplained 2 us y d rest of d taxis refused 2 st0p. due 2 d difference of d fare n other stuff. realise drivin taxi reali isnt an easy j0b. u g0tta stand dose u unreasonable customer stupid attitude. l0ng w0rkin hrs n stuff. *shrugs. thank g0d. daddy isnt driving s0 often n0w. n its like once in a blur moon. =) hMms. after supper we went h0me n i stayed over at g0dpa's place. =)

just wad have i done again right now? shermain lim! u're h0peless!
siGhs. history is gonna repeat again.

*// =)

2005-05-04T19:06:00.000-07:00

okiEs. n0rt really a l0ng entry dis time. =) hahas. g0nna rush off fer my tuition s0on. =(

sun -- w0ke up at 8 plus 2 haf breakfast with my parents! hahas. haven been d0in dat fer a l0ng time. =) anyway we went marketing 2! hahas re-st0ck my tidbits again. s0 sistax u gals can come here n "chiong" again. *winkies. =P hMms. den can h0me at 11 plus 2 catch up on my slp till 3 plus. l0ls. =X hMms. headed 2 haf mother's dae dinner wif my dad's side ppl. hahas. suddenli mish min min jie. d0nno y. heard my big aunt keep t0kin abt her. *shrugs. anyway we went without my dad dis time. hahas. i guz i liek acceptin dem sl0wli now. we're a family after all ba? =) hMms. my uncles were crackin a l0t of j0kes during d dinner. l0ls. alm0st ch0ke a couple of times. hMms went 2 fetch grandma after her mahj0ng session. hahas. went fer supper n she came 2 my h0use 2 slp. =)

m0n -- w0ke up earli in d mornin 2 gif wanshi tuition. her compo is on wed n listenin as well. h0pe 2 brush her up. *shrugs. h0pe she d0 well th0. hMms. den after dat i met xianie at je. hahas. i was late again. =X hMms. headed 2 meet dem at ceninleisure. [ish dat d spelling? =X l0ls] hMms. finally saw gary after such a l0ng time! hahas n g0sh! he n yiN were like s0 l0vey d0vey. *envious. hahas. xianie.ting.yiN.aud.me.gary.jL.aaron were all dere. met up 2 watch pacifier. sh0pped ard fer awhile b4 we went in 2 catch d m0vie. aww! i lurve d movie 2 bits. teared a few times tho. =X hEes. anyway while we're g0in down we saw sB dere. hahas. hMms. anyway we parted our ways after dat. xianie.me.ting.aaron. went 2 sh0p while d other 2 couples went off. walked ard orchard b4 headin 2 swensens fer ice-cream.l0ls. ting was mean 2 make xianie pay fer her ice-cream! l0ls. =X hMms. some unhappy events happened later. shall n0rt elaborate further. anyway ting n aaron went h0me first. wanted 2 went back with xianie bud changed my mind later. s0 she accompanied me fer a while. both of us went 2 wlak al0ng d banks of d s'pore river al d way 2 d esplanade. chatted n t0ok l0tsa pics al0ng d way. =) siGhs. g0nna mish her a l0t dis few daes since she's n0rt ard. =( anw we went 2 walk ard esplanade later. n stumbled in dis shop whereby u can create ur own teddy! d teddy bear als0 had birth cert okiEs?! l0ls. very unique n sweet. n u can dress ur teddy 2! aww! dey r reali damn adorable! xianie n i were den thinkin if a guy gave us dat we'll b like fallin madli in l0ve with him mans. =P l0ls. anyway sent her 2 d mrt station b4 i went 2 sh0pped ard raffles city al0ne. was waiting fer ken den. promised 2 meet him up later. saw dis sh0p where dey sell extremely adorable cute bags. bud dey r all pretty pricey. =X hMms. haven tried sh0ppin myself fer a l0ng time. hahas. t0t a l0t while walkin. d ppl dat entered n left or r still in my life ever since sec1 2 n0w. bJ.kEn.bel.ben.dion.teckl0ong.sick.sB.sebes.ks.5sistas.jas.ashley.jj k0r.
hahas. dey haf once been so attached 2 me. once. fer some of dem. bud some haf left n0w. hahas. *shrugs. hMms. met kEn on d train n headed 2 marina south. haha. went 2 see d stars dere. n diaryx! guz wad? i nvr c so many stars in singapore b4! imagine its s0 dark dere n u're sittin under d skies with beautiful cl0uds n many many twinkling stars ab0ve u. =) hMms. chatted a l0t with him dere. hMms. abt our past? present? future? hahas. n he g0rt many l0ve bites frm d bugs dere!! l0ls =P hahas. anyway i reali enjoyed myself tremendousli dere. thanks a l0t fer accompanin me den n ur listenin ear as well. =) hMms. n once we're like so shock. h0w come 1 couple was walked out of no where. l0ls. imagine how dark it was dere. bud i reali lurve d place 2 bits. we t0ok l0tsa pics of d scenery as well! =D hEes. headed home after dat. felt s0 bad dat he hadta send me h0me when it was like super late? l0ls.

tues -- t0ok half dae off 2 teach wanshi n my new student! khang kai! hahas. met kEn in d evening after wanshi's tuition. [h0pe wanshi will d0 well 2dae.tho she is pretty weak stil. *sighs. h0pe my last brushin up help. *shrugs.] yst was my firz tuition fer k.k. hMms. n his blk was 3 blks awae frm ken onli? l0ls. hMms. went 2 find jas on my own firz b4 he arrived. hahas. her hairstyle is s0....weird now? l0ls. ken said it was style. -.-!! anw we went swensens b4 headin dere. l0ls. n i ordered dis yummy raisin which i din noe contain alcohol. l0ls. n in d end ken hadta eat my waffle with d ice-cream thingy while i had his brownie. l0ls. teased him abt bein drunk.=P anw he said i was fat!! *bish! gonna swim real s0on!! =X headed fer tuition later. l0ls. n while ken n i was walkin down 2wards d k.k's house we heard dis boi screamin. l0ls. n i was tellin ken dat it better nort b my tuition kid. c0z d scream immediately sent me d msg dat he is a very hyper kid. n in d end i was right. -.-! hahas. bud i lurve him 2 bits man. he's onli in k1 dis yr? n he is damn adorable! fair.chubby n boy his handwriting is s0 cute! hahas. n imagine he is so hyper dat he can turn 360 degrees on d chair. l0ls. its a chair with a back support okies?! l0ls. n he was askin me qns like "y is d colour black call black?" l0ls. very cute. gonna take his pic somedae. =P l0ls. anw ken sent me 2 d bus stop after dat. mummy is gonan pick me up. hMms. went fer supper with my parents after dat. =)

weds -- w0rk till 5.30. off 2 gif tuition now. *cia0s

i felt numbed.

*// siGhs.

2005-05-01T17:10:00.000-07:00

okiEs diaryx.

its g0nna b a l0ng re-cap again. l0ls. =X hMms. readers. d0n bother reading unless u're super b0red. c0z its a 5 daes entry!! =X

wed -- g0rt a m0rnin call frm my b0ss 2 ask me 2 w0rk. =/ anw yups yups! went out with xianie n ting! 2 queensway. my intention -- get a jacket n bag. ting - adidas t0p. xianie -- sh0rts. hMms. as usual. i was slightly late. =X hMmms. headed 2 take d train when i arrived. was chatting on d train dat we alm0st missed d st0p until xianie realised dat we've arrived. was pretty l0st after we exit d contr0l station. bud fortunately we saw d bus 2 take dere with d help of d sign thingy. n ting n xianie admitted dey do n0rt haf ani sense of direction!! -my n0se in d air- i'm better dan dem u n0e diaryx? =P hMms. arrived at queensway n we started sh0ppin. aww diaryx! i saw d runnin shoes dere which i bought sometime ag0 n its 20 bucks cheaper dere! *heart pain. hMms. saw dis khaki coloured adidas [ oh yea! i g0rt d round adidas bag lia0s!! =D] bag. d design is pretty unique. hMms. n sp0tted another black leathered adidas de which d design is pretty common. [ i saw a gal carryin it on sat. which was yst?] bud its gorgeous! =/ anw xianie n ting agreed dat d black 1 was nice. *shrugs. hMms. in end after our sh0ppin trip we din managed 2 get our stuff except xianie. =X i g0rt 1 shorts fer daddy. 1 key chain. shades. n a b.u.m shirt. =X anw intended 2 drop by dere again since kenneth wanna go dere as well. oh yea! d 3 of us gort dis starries key chain 2gether! xianie gort d blue 1. ting gort d white n i g0rt pink! =D oh yea! diaryx. while we're eating in fr0nt of dis optical sh0p. i suddenli realise ken's mom is workin in dere. bud i din saw her. i mean i saw her carryin d shop's platic bag d previous dae mahs. n xianie re-confirmed dat she heard him sayin dat she's comin down frm dere d previous dae kinda thing. den suddenli we saw a woman inside behind d frames counter dere. n i n xianie was like -.-!! l0ls. anw its wasnt her in d end. =X hMms. n when i re-confirmed with ken in d evenin he was laffing like hell l0rs. -.-!! s0 evil... hMms. went bishan 2 pass sB his jeans we went sh0ppin fer a while b4 spotting dis art n craft thingy where u're like suppose 2 spread d paint kinda craft? guz wad? we tried. l0ls!! xianie n ting was like damn sl0w... =X when i've d0ne 2!! [ 1 fer mummy n another fer me!! =D] hMms. its was pretty fun tho. =) hiak hiak. i even helped dose 2 slow coaches! l0ls. hMms. went 2 sh0p ard den. aww! i saw dis damn nice seashell bag dere! was abt 2 buy it when i received a msg. den xianie n ting went d0wn 2 help me c0llect it. yea. n i ended up n0rt buyin it. =P hMms. headed 2 teach wanshi later on n went giant 2 get blank discs b4 goin fer dinner wif mummy. =) oh yea! we t0ok l0tsa pics al0ng da way!! hahas. lurve my shades man. =D

thurs -- went 2 w0rk earli in da morning. was feelin damn stressed out still. c0z i'm like suppose 2 d0 accounts in d m0rnin n filing in d afternoon. moreover its end mth cl0sin. -.- hMms. its a gd xperience tho. bud i'm s0 tired after w0rk. jus practicalli sat down dere when i reach h0me n slept at 11 plus.

fri -- went fer w0rk again. bud its till 7pm plus. jus kinda finished 3 quarters of w0rk onli? was super tired den. thank g0d i managed 2 get a lift from b0ss. hahas. =X went 2 pass xianie d discs which i nid her 2 burn fer me after mummy gort off frm w0rk which was like 10 plus? hahas. anw when 2 eat our dinner after dats n i knock out immediately when i reached h0me.

sat -- dragged myself outta bed again. suppose 2 g0 back 2 finish it up since dat dae is d cl0sin acc dae. felt so tired after gettin outta office. its 2.30 den. w0rked 2 hrs plus xtra ot. =( in d end ting n yiN was suppose 2 meet at 1.30 went off by demselves firz. was on d wae 2 meet dem when i received a call frm est n i alighted at je 2 wait fer her. suaned her all d wae till we met d other 2 at suntec. l0ls. n i had fun den. =P my nxt target after xianie!! =X hMms. headed 2 makan n i was like still nort full after 1 plate of pasta n ordered s0me other stuff 2 eat again. l0ls! yesh! i'm super fat now. laugh all u wan. =P hMms. t0ok a cab 2 meet xianie n like in cab i gort suaned by d 3 of dem abt d testi i wrote fer dem. okok!! i'm loud ok? hmmphs!! anw est commented abt my out-l0oks don match my behaviour!! *bish. all my sistas r ol veggie ar!! *grinning. reached tanglin mall. n its like at firz when we arrived we cldnt find d escalator! n we ended up realised we've walked 1 big round 2 find it. l0ls. n d same incident happened in suntec a few times!! l0ls. anw i n est haf chemistry fer each other u n0e? l0ls. right sweetie? =P hMms. met up with aud n xianie. l0ls. aud's hairstyle dat dae was like a kid0s man! =P anw its like MI is h0ldin dis kinda market thingy n aud's st0re is makin candles. so jus went down 2 support her. =) bought a candle frm her. 2 archie comics fer 4 bucks! *~wEee! n d comics is in gd condition! =D bought 2 personalised cups fer mummy n j0e ma. hMms. 1 ph0toframe. =) yups yups. met a few ex sch frens dere as wel. =) hMms. headed 2 orchard later with ting . yiN . est. hMms. called ken up 2 meet us a BK. n he finalli met ting! l0ls. new sch mates in future. *winkies. n est was like blushin!! l0ls. =P hMms. anw chatted with him n d other 3 ladies b4 he sent me off 2 mrt n d other 3 went sh0ppin. =( hMmphs! was suppose 2 meet my parents den. n oh yea! ken was like super mean l0rs! he said d art n craft were fer kids! n we're childish 2 d0 it! *bish! =P hMms. anw he's suppose 2 call me jie jie fer a wk!! =P n g0d. i'm falling fer xianie's f0ne! kept playin wif it wheneva i'm with her.. =( hMms. kinda gort damn upset over dis fren yst nite. was feelin damn hurt abt his words. h0nestli i donno wad went wr0ng. bud like wad he sae. leave everythin fate. mayb we'll meet again. n i h0pe things will take fer a better turn den. *shrugs.

imissual0tsick..u'reright.i'mtaking4eva
to4getsome1.budi'llbounce2usomeday
andtellyouthati'malloverhim.justu
waitandsee

*// outings

2005-04-27T02:03:00.000-07:00

okiEs! 2nd entry fer d dae! hMms. i went 2 sp on mon. fer my enr0lment stuff with mummy. tho things didnt work out well fer us den. =X l0ls. hate my lanyard pic mans! *b0os. =X hMms. anw i signed up fer d sMa freshie camp. n pretty b0i was s0 mean 2 say it was all scam! l0ls. oh! i saw daniel 2! alm0st cldnt recognise him! hahas. he haf 2 call out my name b4 i realise it was him. =X okiEs okiEs. i n0e i'm blur. hMms. went swimming with xianie after dats. hahas. brought her 2 d jE p0ol again. [diaryx! its her 2nd time dere!! =X] hMms. when we arrived. we realised d p0ol was nort open yet. so we went 2 kfc. wanted 2 grab a bite. bud after we saw d horrendous queue. we jus chose 2 occupy d seats dere. n wait fer d po0l 2 b opened in twenty minutes time! meanie huh? =X hMms. went fer a swim after dat. swam my agreed 10 laps with xianie slowly. 2 tired 2 swim fast den. =X hMms. alm0st caused xianie 2 fall by d p0olside. =X bud instead she din n she screamed so loudly!! l0ls. n imagine everi1 starin at her. l0ls. cldnt st0p laffing den. okok. i n0e i'm so mean......=P hMms. tricked her in 2 takin d yellow slide without telling her how scary it was. anw after my turn. n when it was hers. at dat moment when she came down was hilarious man! =X opps. *clearing my throat* aniwae we headed 2 d wave pool. slacked dere fer awhile while waiting fer d wave. hMms. headed 2 shower after dat. had fun chatting with her den while we're slacking. =X n oh yea! i hate d stupid swimmin cap man!! *b0os.

headed 2 kfc 2 haf sth n mummy came 2 fetch us back 2 my place. hMms. went 2 d mama shop near my place 2 buy ice-creams. sat at d playground while eating. =) haven been sitting dere fer a l0ng time. since a couple of yrs back. hahas. hMms. came up 2 my place 2 slack fer awhile. din wanna follow my parents 2 malaysia since dey had sth on dere. so used xianie as an xcuse. l0ls. hMms. i ended up in xianie's place later al0ng with ting. brought crackers.fd. n drinks dere! machiam haf party dere. n we did!! chatted a l0t. heard xianie played d pian0. crackin j0kes. played truth n dare. l0ls. realised guys r nort stupid. called a few guys like aaron. pretty b0i. xianie's guy fren. j0e.tianha0 n dey all realised we're playin truth n dare. l0ls. xcept aar0n. [xianie's guy fren din ans d f0ne. =(] hMms. shared a l0t of stuff among us as well. reali had fun dere. n of c0z felt so warmed within. =) left at 11 plus. my parents came 2 pick mi n ting up. sent her back n chatted thru d nite with pretty b0i. n in d end d j0g in d mornin agreed among d 3 of us wasnt fulfilled. i n xianie cldnt wake up. n ting din wan =X

hMms. received a msg frm pretty b0i in d mornin 2dae. chatted on a fone with him b4 goin 2 meet him n my newly known fren aldis at plaza sing. [oh yea. deres another couple. bud din manage 2 noe dem. =X] hahas. xianie knew aldis. so invited xianie 2 join us fer d movie. infection. n i was alm0st late. =X n g0d d movie was gross n scary 2!! was disturbin xianie during sh0w den. =P l0ls. scared her a few times. hMms. pretty b0i n i tried 2 match make dem den. l0ls. bud din succeed lars. -shakie head- l0ls. after d movie we went ard walkin ard. bought xianie her new lip gloss. since i spoilt hers earlier on. =X hMms. finally went 2 d kopitiam n sit ard.ate ice-cream while nibbled a bit on xianie's carrot cake. =P left xianie n her FREN al0ne [=P] while pretty b0i n i went 2 d jigsaw world 2 l0ok ard. lurve d jigsaws dere. hahas. bud i've gort no patience 2 d0 it. =P hMms. sent xianie off after dat while d 3 of us headed 2 paragon 2 get pretty b0i hp. hMms. met his mom dere. l0ls. pretty b0i l0oked like her!abt 70%? l0ls. PRETTY boi yea? =P hMms. sh0pped ard with aldis later. n g0d he's a perfect company 2 go sh0ppin wif man. he don mind entering boutiques. n jus simply so easy-goin. l0ls. hMms. headed 2 religious class later n went 2 je later 2 meet my parents. chatted al0ng d wae wif pretty b0i. l0ls. n he called me jie jie many times 2dae. okok. i noe onli fer 2dae. n i'll hear no more jie jie frm him after 2dae. =( hahas. realise he reali haf als0 pretty bad experience in his relationship wise in d past. hMms. was reali feelin my case was nort as bad his. n i was like "thank g0d" =X hahas. okiEs okiEs. datz all fer 2dae f0lks.=) going shoppin wif ting n xianie tml!!!! =D

*// safbear

2005-04-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

dEarest diaryx.

hMms. jus receive a msg frm sB. haven been contacting him. or rather i chose not 2. i'm jus nort ready 2 face him somehow or rather i believe it will b a very l0ng time. whatever i've been thru somehow. jus seems 2 cast a real dark shadow over me. i din wanna let myself haf ani deadline 2 get over him. or rather accept whatever dat has happen on me. "did he matter a l0t 2 me" was jus a qn floating in my mind dese daes. bud after receivin his msg 2dae. i guz nort as much as b4. or rather it reduced greatly. yes. so wad if i'm hurt? n right now i'm lickin my wounds? i reali don c ani nid 2 hide it anim0re. d wounds will heal. jus dat it takes time. whether 2 numb it or let it heal will b my choice den. n yes. i chose 2 heal it. i don wan 2 throw d memories at d back of my head n pretend nth happen. sth happen. n instead its a series of events. i don deny i felt betrayed.hurt.uncertain n many other mixed feelings. n i'm sorting dem out slowly now. jus give me time. i'm learning 2 live a life without u. which i tot i cldnt in d past. bud now i realise i'm getting on fine with it. d reason y i chose 2 ignore every of ur msges. deleted awae ur n0s. clearing every stuff dat has memories of u. was bc0z i don wanna live in d past anim0re. i noe i've hurt u deeply. by leavin so firmly. bud u'll adapt 2 ur present life s0on. its just whether u wan or n0rts. don b so silly nort going 2 sch. gettin distracted in work n chose 2 remain stagnant dere. it wont make life easier fer u. instead u'll hurt d surroundin ppl ard u. who cared fer u. n yes. things wont change even if u do dat. if u're doin dat jus 2 take a break den gif it 2urself. u deserve it. bud u've gotta pull urself up fast. d world don stop turnin fer ur sake. it'll keep turnin. everything will move on so fast without u realisin. den dat dae u'll realise u've a harder time den. bc0z u're laid back n haf 2 catch up. who doesnt experience heart breaking moments in life? n yes. i cant assured u abt our promises in future. bud if my wounds heal in future. i'll contact u den. we all haf 2 move on n0w. i reali don feel d same animore. i'm sorrie. bud pls pull urself 2gether soon. if fate realli permits. we'll meet again. u may think i'm dumb 2 lay my destiny in fate's hand. bud i rather things proceeds on a natural course. den i wont feel so tired keepin up. jia u wors. in ur new w0rld. n mine 2. don b so silly animore. n0 miracles will happen in ur life anim0re. at least fer our relationship. n i don wanna hear ani sorries frm u animore. u've said enuff. n i've accepted it. all d best n thanks fer all those gd moments.

*// l0ng entry!!

2005-04-24T11:57:00.000-07:00

ok. if u're intendin 2 read my dis entry. u better b prepared 2 face a super duper l0ng 1! *wiNkies

dEarest diaryx.

thurs - hMms. din managed 2 j0g with bEl in d m0rning. l0ls. c0z d nite b4 i slept at 4 plus. after [making bel sing twinkle twinkle fer me while he was half awake n aslp n hung after dat.] , [called benn0 b make him d0 d same. bud he ended up nort singin finish d wh0le song n hung.] , [called bel again n chatted wif him fer a l0ng time b4 i gort sh0oed off 2 slp by him.] =) okiEs. so at 9 plus i was dragged outta d bed by my mummy. was suppose 2 g0 fer my medical check up at jE. hMms. so when we finally reached dere. d xray section was pretty quick. bud subsequently d various sections were pretty sl0w. hMms. when i was takin my height n weight. dere is dis nurse who actualli came 4ward n ask if she can try my slip-ons! l0ls. n i was like -.- hahas. anw her leg size was 2 big. so she din manage 2 try on. l0ls. while waiting i chatted a l0t wif my mom. haha. realise she is more evil dan me when it comes 2 relationship stuff man! she reali haf a l0t of wicked pl0ts! =P hMms. went 2 haf lunch after dat. hMms. t0ok public transport back myself bc0z she was rushin fer a meetin. t0ok a nap frm 2 plus 2 5 plus! l0ls. super tired mans. hMms. went out fer steamboat wif keane.j0e ma.grandma. hMms. den headed fer east coast 2 haf coffee dere. while d adults were hafin coffee n chattin happily, i'm like playin catchin with keane at d mac play ground dere! -.-!! n imagine dere is dis bunch of guys which i think was abt my age was starin at me! arrgh! moreover dey r damn attractive man! saw 1 wif 6 -pac n he's l0ok damn damn good-l0okin!! =X bud i had fun anw. =) lurve my br0 2 bits. oh yea! i went 2 d beach 2!! bud its onli fer a short while. =X den in d we hrs of d mornin i dragged pretty b0i n ting 2 slp wif me at 3 plus! l0ls. bud nvm. dey get 2 noe 1 new sch mate. =X

fri -- hMms. went out wif pretty b0i den. hMms. was arguin wif him den wad 2 watch in d mornin since he had 2 free movie passes. n in d end d shows we wanted 2 watch like d wetdreams? [it was M18. eh! i watchin it fer d sake of comedy h0rs! nort like d pretty b0i so evil!! =P] hMms. finally we settled on a h0rror movie [creep] reluctantly. [ i was d reluctant 1. its like xianie described till damn creepy!] hMms. was suppose 2 meet at 2 at city hall. bud we ended up nort watchin it bc0z i was late!! =D decided 2 meet at marina bay instead. n guz wad diaryx! i met a damn handsome caucasian al0ng d wae! he had his name tag on! [guz he was doin some kinda sales j0b =/] his name is david!! n i was like practically starin at him. he's abt less dan 30? n guz wad? he noticed me starin at him!! =X bud nvm. he sh0 shuai muz let ppl c !! don let such gd l0oks go 2 waste!! l0ls

hMms. finally arrived at d kite sh0p at marina! hahas. n pretty b0i is nort only pretty bud petty! while we're buyin d kites. d aunty ask him 2 help her put something on d higher shelves as she cldnt reach. n he actuali grumbled abt it!! s0 evil! =P hMms. n when we finally settled on 1 ultraman n 1 charmander de. [diaryx. u noe sth? i kinda bcome damn superstitious dat d chamander kite will surely fly damn high. since meiyin's 1 did =X] n when i bought a 1.5L water frm d aunt n it cost mi $2. pretty b0i started makein noise how expensive isiz infront of d d aunt!! -.-! l0ls. eh b0i b0i. ppl's rental xpensive mahs. so its d expected rate rite? =P hMms. settled on a spot on d field. n started flying d kites. l0ls. somehow d ultraman did n0rt manage 2 fly somehow. l0ls. n my charmander did!! haha. n we're like competin against dis c0uple who was so at d other end of d field. l0ls. n imagine we did bring any shades n both of us were wearin contact lenses n our kite kept flyin 2wards d hot n sunny sun!!! -.-! hahas. bud d kite reali flew very high diaryx! hahas. n pretty b0i started showin off n tellin me 1 b0lt [is dat d right w0rd? =/] of string can b connected 2 another bolt!! l0ls. anw we sat down on d green n sunny field n chatted while flyin it. it was very relaxing n peaceful den. felt my strings were al completely cut off frm d world den. bud jus d sun. field. d kite. d breeze n me. =) hMms. n suddenli a lit accident occured!! i accidentally let go of d string!! arrgh! n d kite disappeared in2 d skies somehow. siGhs.headed 2 d s0 called sea side at abt somewhere near d field. its reali a nice place yea? if dere is an opp. u guys can head dere 2 somedae. =) njoyed d sea breeze dere while we chatted again. hMms. in d end pretty b0i taught me how 2 play d finger guessin game. altho i l0st 2 him by jus a few rounds bud its pretty gd fer a beginner okies? =D hMms. hang ard dere fer awhile while l0okin at dese 2 gals flyin their kites near d TREES. l0ls. anw reali had fun dere. =) better treasure d opp n go dere more often b4 d casino is set up. =X

hMms. headed 2 d arcade n played some games. n i l0st 2 pretty b0i in d hitting game!! he is so pr0! *bish! hahas. headed back 2 marina 2 take d mrt. n al0ng d wae pretty b0i was being bullied by me!! hiak hiak! =X

hMms. slept damn earli dat nite. =X haha. was feelin xtremely tired dat dae. =X

sat -- went 2 d bank 2 pay my poly fees. b4 g0in fer breakfast n headed 2 wanshi's house fer tuition. her orals are on mon. =/ h0pe she can d0 well. *cr0ssin my fingers. hMms. headed 2 l0t 1 2 find j0e ma later. hMms. spotted dis damn nice billab0ng hat dere! arrgh! hMms. sent keane 2 his 3rd tuition of d dae. =X l0ls. b4 headin back 2 her house. hMms. had a fun time chattin wif her n grandma! l0ls. cracked a l0t j0kes among ourselves. =D hMms. headed back 2 l0t 1 2 fetch keane b4 headin 2 bugis. sh0pped ard dere fer awhile n played d kiddy arcade games. haha guz wad diaryx? we won d jackpot fer d arcade tickets! *weEe! =X hMms xchanged fer al d snacks dere! =D hMms. den headed 2 his restaurant which i find d ambience superb!! its cozy n romantic! its a jap western restaurant. u can find it in parc0. 2nd level at d corner de. bud its damn pricey!!! *yikEs. imagine 1 pizza fer 2 its like 30+? l0ls. bud i reali njoyed my f0od dere! lurve j0e ma 2 bits! chatted with her while keane was busy eating =) walked ard seiyu b4 headin 2 seiyu 2 sh0p fer grandma's mother day's prezzi. headed 2 buy some snacks back home after dat. slept over at her house last nite. =)

sun- went fer religious camp d whole dae n went out 2 haf dinner wif my relatives. =)

heys pretty b0i. i was thinkin abt how my dream guy will b like since u've found urs. i guz all d while i n0e i was eyein at d hunks i met on d roads. bud i guz my dream guy will b some1 who is just some1 i l0ve reali deeply. c0z l0ve is blind i guz? even if he's d worse guy on earth. bud bc0z u jus seems 2 l0ve him so deeply dat u'll take in all his/her bad pts. bc0z dats d person u fell fer. d original him. nort some1 who matched my maturity level. being understandin. whether we trust each other an0rts. or etc. bc0z its d bondin dats so strong between d both of u dats able 2 overcome all obstacles. n u noe sth. u cant resist it. even when u kept insistin 2 find d right 1 with d qualities u desire his/her 2 haf.n instead its d love chemistry dat makes u trust him readily. understand d inner him. heard abt d "other partner" everibodi? it meant 2 separate souls findin their other half n dats when dey combine in2 1. n u'll understand him naturally. n its so hard 2 spilt u 2 up bc0z d bondin is so strong. its all natural i guz? haha. sorri fer bull-shittin here. bud dats wad i concluded fer now. i'm still searchin fer d other half of mine. mayb i'm 2 young 2 meet him now. bud i guz when fate allows.....i'll meet him. n dats when 2 souls combinin in2 1. jus 1. =)

*// j0b interview

2005-04-21T00:40:00.000-07:00

dEarest diaryx!

jus realise i'm damn silly. 2 feel sorri fer wad i've done. d firm decision i h0ld. bud after hearin wad happen dis aftern0on frm of my cl0se peEps. i guz i was d dumb 1. =X oh well. dere's reali no turnin back animore. n no way do i wan 2 either. maybe he may haf his reasons or wadsoever fer d0in dat. bud i reali cant b bothered anim0re. =X aniwae i realise my relationship is nort so great either. i mean we don even haf d simple "sharing" quality. so its like pretty superficial. -shrugs- i guz i'm 2 biased. bud i guz i'm jus 2 young 2 handle such bgr thingy. l0ls

hMms. sth biggie big [hMms in my opinion] happen 2 me last nite. *blEahs. cried like hell n made so mani ppl worried fer me. =X i'mm so sorrie jie "s". bJ. pretty b0i. bud eventually mummy found out i was crying. n she kept askin even when i was showerin -.-!! l0ls. anw i t0ld her everythin eventualli. n she comforted me. n i was like damn stunned jus now when my close peep t0ld me wad she saw 2dae. n i was like mummy words r so true. l0ls. she was comfortin me dat mayb he'll b fine tml n who knows being happily wif her. n it came true 2dae!! -.-!

hMms. anwi realise now i can relate a l0t 2 my mom. i guz if it wldnt b fer dis incident i wldnt haf gained 2 impt things wif my life. cl0sin up d gap between my bel0ved mummy n hafin d courage 2 m0ve on. =) oh yea! i reali l0ve my 5 sistas n bJ l0tsa! dey're reali great supporters of my life! =D n of c0z jas. healing my emotional probs wif jus a simple sentence. hey pretty n adorable jas. u're reali 1 of d joys of my life. =)

hMms. woke up 2dae n msged sR 2 ask if we can discussed abt d j0b issue. hMms. gort various n0s. frm him n started callin. heys its nort bad. 2dae i'm like my 2nd time try callin fer jobs n i think i'm pretty fluent! =X hMms. finalli gort a job interview which i'm reali interested 2 g0. its a so call teahcin job. xcept dat we gotta mark d worksheets instead of teachin. hMms. pretty b0i was sweet enuff 2 accompani mi down. =) hMms. was on d wae 2 meet him when i realised i f0rgot 2 bring d relevant stuff fer d interview! n dat time i was like in jp alreadi. -.-!! in d end i went back home 2 grab it n went off 2 meet him at bukit bat0k mrt. l0ls. our interview was like at 3 bud in d end when i arrived it was 10 mins 2 3! l0ls. n we're still at bukit bat0k mrt mac dere. [*blEahs. make pretty b0i gort me a drink b4 i arrived. =X hMms. he was queuin when i arrived. n guz wad diaryx? he gort "shua" by d mac personnel. l0ls ] hMms. t0ok a bus dere. n al0ng d wae we're examinin his "new" hairstyle. l0ls. bud i like his hair back part dere. =P smooth n soft!

hMms. arrived at beauty world after much arguin which buildin shld we go. [c0z dere r like 2 buildins? beauty world plaze n beauty world centre?]l0ls. hMms in d end dat stupid fella instinct was right -.-!! [so unfair right?!] hMms n guz wad? when we finally reached. dere was a grp ppl sitting ard d table. n like dey r hafin some kinda meeting. so we're pretty hesitant 2 knock n enter. we ended up in d bk sh0p. n dat chap can even explain 2 me y was comics rated as "huang se man hua" [direct translation in eng : yellow comics] n his reason was d pages of d comics r turnin yellow dats y. -.-!!!!!!!!!! lame rite diaryx?

anw we went back 2 centre n guz wad it was empty! so we knocked n enter! n guz wad? d man t0ld us jus now d grp of ppl r hafin d interview n nort some kinda meetin -.-!! anw he was kind enuff 2 h0ld a short n brief interview fer d both of us. l0ls. it was my 1st interview den. n its like i'm so nervous inside. like a cat on hot bricks while dat chap was like totalli cool n steady? -.- so unfair. it was onli his 3rd interview n d way he sit is alreadi like so pr0? -.-! anw when d interview was done we went over 2 killney 2 haf french toast n coffee/tea!! n i realise dat xia0 didi like coffee -.-!! anw he had a phobia of eating eggs!! l0ls. =X

hMms. wanted 2 head 2 westmall. bud in end we ended up takin 173 n ended up in clementi. l0ls. al0ng d wae we past by MI n i was like din realise dat was MI. so as d bus was travellin ard d field dere i commented dat how come a pri sch [ i saw d front gate of bukit timah pri mahs] gort so mani grown n shuai guys even tho dey r like less dan 12? n dere was dis bunch of guys in green uni [ i din noe it was MI uniform!!] at d back sniggerin. n pretty b0i laffed damn l0ud l0rs! n i was like damn blur y dey did. n guz wad? instead of analyzin it fer me, pretty b0i suan me abt it!! arrgh!! hate him *bish! n i became d laffin stock of bus unknowingli. -.- anw we're r like damn puzzled abt a bus-stop being in d middle of a private estate. i tot rich ppl seldom take bus de? can make money mehs? -.-??

hMms. anw we t0ok a mrt frm clementi 2 bukit bat0k. n its like al0ng d wae i was callin n askin my cousin wad bus 2 take frm d interchange dere. n she was so blur 2 even hafta call n ask her dad. l0ls. anw pretty boi accompanied me 2 take d bus n eventualli sent me 2 d blk which was surprisingli sweet of him. =P l0ls. anw i din feel so bad fer draggin him dere. bc0z he had a bus 2 take back 2 toa pay0h. tho he had 2 walk quite a distance after dat. l0ls. =X

taught wanshi after dat. hMms. i alm0st gort damn pissed off. imagine a pri 3 student nort knowin wads a noun n verb!!!! arrgh! taught her dat anw. n she better remember it! -hiak hiak- i'm evil!!

hMms. came home after dat. n when i was walkin back i saw many starS!! wEeee!! hahas. anw cam home had dinner. chatted wif my sistas. xianie flying off tml le. hMms. b0n voyage wors! oh yea! ting almost burn down her house! dats y she's stuck at xianie's place till 11 plus. even after when i a aud hung at 11.30++ l0ls. ladies n gentlemen. pls do not 4get 2 leave ur kettle on in future. or u'll b like ting hafin 2 stay at ur frens place jus 2 escape frm her mom's scoldin! l0ls. anw jus kiddin ok??? u al read onli ar! don go tell her! if nort i gotta like pei chang her n my other sistas. nono!! a mac meal each lehs if i suan her each time. somemore is like 5 gals???!! siGhs. diaryx. u c dese ol veggies so mean. alwae bulli me de. =X

anw i realise i'm learnin a l0t frm pretty b0i dese daes. he definitely had great grasp of his bio knowledge [altho he gort c5 fer it in 0s!! l0ls =X] anw he can tell me so detail how d kidney function n d various blood types n etc. n i'm like wonderin " is he some kinda bio freak??" l0ls. anw he is a nice chap lars overall. except fer all d suanin n his refusal of callin me a jie jie. =Pp

*blEahs i'm joggin wif bel tml again!! *wEee! time 2 l0se weight!! oh yea its my benn0's di bdae 2dae!! happy 18th bdae tml!! *muaCks. all d best fer ur 0s ok? =D

*// flyers

2005-04-19T17:45:00.000-07:00

okiEs! 2nd entry!

dEarest diary. i'm still short of cash 2 pay fer my bill. managed 2 raised $70 now n i'm still sort of $60! =( j0b intro ani1?

hMms. went 2 visit my paternal grandparents on sun. hMms. n taught wanshi in evenin b4 havin dinner wif grandma n kEane's family. =)

hMms. went out fer a flyers job yst. hMms. met bJ n his br0 at jE. n he was late again! *bish =P called pretty b0i 2 ask him nort head down so earli. t0k in depth wif bJ again. hMms. was certain abt my feelins den somehow. at least 2 noe i shld face it wif a optimistic view. =) when we finalli reached potong pasir. hMms. we headed straight fer tuition centre instead of waiting fer pretty b0i. l0ls. it wasnt my idea! it was bJ =X hMms. n finalli when pretty b0i arrived we went 2 haf our lunch cum breakfast. hMms. pretty b0i is reali damn concerned abt his height man! he actualli t0ok off his shoes 2 prove 2 mi he is taller without his adidas shoes. he claimed dat he was 169 n i didnt believe d previous nite =X

hMms. went 2 take d flyers n off we headed fer our job. it wasnt as bad as i tot. jus merely stuffin flyers on d door step. n once i even saw a cat at d gate dere! *gosh it almost scare d hell of me den! hMms. had a break in between n d guys were like coverin topics like d various guns type. d future population. clonin of d sperm n various chim chim t0pic. l0ls. n i was dere like -.-! =X hMms bud it was fun hangin out wif dem. n of c0z when i had some nice fella 2 carry my bag fer me! =D hMms. started at abt 12 n ended at 5 plus. hMms. had dinner wif dem. n its like d 3 guys r so SWEET 2 even interprete fer me wads d meanin of chai fan!! *blEahs gort suan by dem abt other stuff 2. u c u c! how gentlemen dey r diary! hMms. dragged pretty b0i 2 woodlands 2 collect d jeans. =P hMms. reali enjoy his compani al0ng d wae. esp when he accompanied 2 find jas. =D n i gort suan by him jus bc0z i nvr go toa payoh dere 2 shop b4! *bish! hMms. t0k a l0t of stuff wif him al0ng d wae. =) hMms. after collectin d jeans at causeway we went walkin ard b4 we went back.

went 2 jp later 2 collect my runnin shoes which we ordered like since thurs? l0ls. hMms. mummy t0ok a l0ng time 2 reach. so as i was shoppin al0ne dere. i spotted a nice khaki coloured adidas round bag. a khaki coloured billabong hat. n 1 FBT (erms is dat it? =/) navy blue shorts! bud 2 bad. i'm br0ke now. so i can onli c c l0ok l0ok. =( hMms. mummy finalli arrived n we went 2 collect my shoes. bud d size didnt fit. so in end we settled fer another shoe which i'm pretty satisfied abt! =D bud kinda felt bad buyin it. hMms noe mummy is pretty broke now bud jus 2 keep her pr0mise. she ended up buyin me d shoes. =X met aunt lily n uncle lay chuan fer dinner later n onli reached home abt 10 plus? had a shower b4 i finalli settled some stuff wif sB once n fer all.

altho i cant reali assure myself i wont regret fer d decision i t0ok now. bud at least rite now i pretty sure i wan a brand n fresh new start. i'm s0rrie if i decided jus on my own part. i noe i'm selfish. bud if we reali l0st dis gamble wif fate. den i can onli sae we're reali nort meant 2 b. i'm sorrie. i nvr felt my life more screwed up den now. i'm sorrie.

n diary. i nvr felt more thankful dan now abt my frens.

my sweet 5 sistas had been bhind me all dese while. b4 dat ting.xianie.aud had been accompanin me 2 walk dat tiugh route. rooting fer me. givin me al d support i nid. n now est n yin r doin dat. my 5 sistas r reali jus a call awae. thanks gals. u nvr knew how thankful rite now. without u accompanin me all d wae. i guz i wldnt b survin till now. stayin up late in nite jus 2 make sure i can b able 2 slp well n i'm alright after al d stuff dat haf happen. i reali love u gals l0tsa. thanks fer supportin my decision n assurin me =) i reali h0pe we can reali accompani each other al0ng d wae till we're all grandparents ourselves =) *hugs

bJ-- thanks fer bein dere fer me all d while. =) bringin me back 2 reality 2 face all of it. instead of hidin frm dem. u nvr knew how warmin isiz 2 noe u'll put down all ur stuff jus 2 hear my woes. altho we onli knew each other less dan 6 mths. bud instead i feel like i've known u fer yrs. =) u're reali a great pal. a pal i'll cherish fer d rest of my lifetime. =) *hugs

jAs.-- nort even a million thanks could ever express my gratitude 2 u. =) u're reali d some1 i'll h0ld tight n close 2 my heart. *hugs

pretty b0i-- hMms. its reali warmin 2 noe late in d nite u're waitin fer my call 2 make sure i'm ok. esp when its alreadi close 2 2am in d mornin n when u msged me dat. =) thanks fer cheerin me up last nite. bud i've yet 2 come up wif all d ans 2 ans ur qns. =P *hugs

*blEahs i'm soundin like a gifin a thank u speech. *blush. bud now when i've reali bein sure dat i wanna move on. i will. i'm sorrie sB

*// my sistas! my l0ved ones. =X

2005-04-19T17:00:00.000-07:00

okiEs diary! i g0tta update 2 entries! l0ls. i guz bc0z i'm kinda bored now. okiEs!

met my sistaS last sat! yups. all thanks 2 meiyin settin all d stuff in place n we can realli haf a successful outing! thanks yiN! *muaCks.

met dem in lJs. tho i was d last 1 2 reach without a gd reas0n. l0ls. =X had our breakfast dere. n headed 2 marina!! l0ls. on d way dere we're changin seats here n dere. n imagine d ppl on da train kept starin at us. guz we do haf some dynamic presence yea? =X hMms. n of c0z i got bullied by d 5 ol veggies ! dey actualli t0ok my flip flops n kick it here n dere! *gals! grow up lars! =P *wakaka!

finalli we reached marina! hMms d 6 of us den r like some ah sa0s frm d market. t0kin n laffin at d top of our voices. imagine us walkin out frm d station n discussin wad bus 2 take n dere is dis uncle walkin in fr0nt of us can suddenli turn n sae "take bus 400!" l0ls. it reali scared d hell outta us when some1 suddenli turn n did dat. =X hMms boarded d bus n again we're hafin fun takin piCs n of c0z laffin like d ah saos frm d market. [l0ls. gd expression yea? *winkiEs]

hMms. finalli we've reached our stop n we immediately spotted d kite sh0p. =D bought dis biggie big kite which c0sts 20 bucks. n 5 other small ones. est gort d big purple 1 which had d 6 cartoon characters. pretty significant huh? =D ting n aud g0rt d hello kitty de. xianie n yiN g0rts d charmander de. n i gort 2 kites. *blEahs. my firz kite d ultraman 1 isnt workin. so in d end d kind uncle actualli allowed me 2 change it! =D in d end i gort a new butterfly kite! among d 6 of us. yiN gort d best kite flyin skills! she managed 2 send her kite up 2 10 storeys high! *blEahs so unfair! =X hMms. d rest of dem were als0 nort bad. except me! i cldnt control d wae 2 fly it! bud my sistas r sweet! dey allowed me play wif theirs. once when yiN lent me her soarin kite. i actualli tangled in onto d soccer net thingy! in d end aud n yiN had 2 help me untangle d strings under d bright n hot sun. =X [okok! i admit i'm clumsy ok? *blEahs] t0ok some shots on d field 2! d big purple kite soaring on d skies. d wae some of my sistAs flew their kites. n our sh0es/flip flops/sandles! l0ls.est even invent her own adidas cum converse shoes!!

had a drink at a coffeeshop later b4 headin 2 bowl. diary! i still did nort pass d 70 pts mark yet [ i onli scored 52] ! kinda saddenin huh? =( i jus din manage 2 aim properli time n time again! n of coz my sistas r all so SWEET 2 even take a few candid shots of me bowlin! *blEahs. t0ok mani shots in d bowlin alley 2! once we even hadta made us of d lockers,b0oks, tissue papers as a camera stand fer us! l0ls. hMms. in d end my team [xianie.ting.me vs est.yin.aud] won!! bud est manage 2 strike at firz n so did xianie n i !! =D

hMms. went out 2 fly our kites later! c0z d wind was pretty gd n it wasnt so h0t den. hMms. my sistas were once again so SWEET 2 make me approach a grp of guys 2 help us take a full pic wif our kites. *hmmphs. aud went off later. n d 5 of us headed 2 d arcade 2 haf a game of car racin. wEee! i gort 3rd twice in a row! *wakaka! hMms. headed 2 d bowlin alley 2 play pool later. wasnt reali interest den. =X so after i went in2 d arcade alone 2 play a few arcade games. played puzzle bobble [ish dat it? =/] d hittin 1 n d car racin again. =) hMms. headed fer our dinner [steamboat] after dat. hMms. had a fun time chattin wif d0se 4 peeps. l0ls. xcept fer d oil splatterin incident of c0z. l0ls. n est gort her white jersey stained!! [erms wif chilly =P pls don think otherwise. l0ls] hMms. headed 2 d bus stop 2 go home later. n we kinda spotted a censored scene of a guy n gal. l0ls. =X

hMms. t0ok d mrt back. while we're at city hall mrt station, est n i start acting like aunties n of c0z pose fer a few sh0ts!! l0ls. n nort 4gettin takin xianie n yiN's monkey butt faces. l0ls. =X

had a great dae den!! felt like a human den. after all d emotional roller coaster rides all dis while. n0rt so numb i guz. =)

*lurvE my sistas 2 bits!! hEys we're startin 2 l0ok alike! d kite sh0p uncle t0t we're reali siblings n even commented we've gort such a big family! *wEeee!!
-huggies
xianiE.ting.aud.est.yiN.sher --* 6 sistas!

*// d0n sp0il guys!

2005-04-15T17:07:00.000-07:00

dEarest diaryx.

been gettin into petty arguements with him. hMms. he claimed i'm unreasonable n i feel he d0esnt haf TLC [g0 figure urself =P]. oh well din slept well da wh0le nite. hMms. kept wakin up. kinda felt damn frustrated with myself abt wads happenin between us. slept at abt 2 last nite. hMms. woke up at 5. n ard 9plus in d mornin. read some archie comics b4 i feel tired again n slept again. gave up slpin finalli at 11 plus.

msged him. n he called me later. chatted fer a while b4 i whipped up some stuff 2 filled my growlin tummy. =X hMms. watched mulan2 while eating. hEes guz i'll nvr get tired by d disney carto0ns. hMms. i'm still aimin at d li0n king 3! haha haven gort d opp. 2 get mummy 2 get it fer me. =D

now lets c. i've gort mulan 1 & 2. cinderella 1 & 2. sn0w white. lit' mermaid 1 & 2. li0n king 1 & 2. 101 dalmations n d 102 1. slpin beauty. pochohatus 1 & 2 [ish dat d rite spellin? =x]. bambi. all dogs go 2 heaven 1 & 2. n a l0t m0re. *blEahs. lazy 2 type.

hMms. called him again b4 he went offta w0rk. n guz wad? we quarrelled again! *shrugs. hMms. continue watchin d 2nd part of it we hang. hMms. was feelin damn screwed up within den. n dats when i msged him. l0ls. a pretty l0ng 1. 5 msges l0ng. felt so much beta after dat. =) n i came online later. started t0kin 2 sR. est.bel. hMms. is so unfair! est blog is alwaes hafin dose nice nice midi! [sobbing loudli!!] he jus called. n i'm so glad we had a smooth conversation den! =D hMms. helped him 2 call SIM regardin his course. b4 gettin back 2 him. dicussed abt it n he claimed da i'm finali smarter by hafin intiative in certain aspects! -.-! [ take dat! *bish! =X] hMms. called d sch back again. n dats when d operator [erm is dat it?] n i started chattin wif her after when i t0ld her dat i'm actualli jus enquirin fer a fren? l0ls well anw she started tellin me i shldnt spoil guys. like she did 2 her husband. c0z its alwaes her husband dotin on her n often n0rt d other wae round. n started tellin me dats a very gd advice frm a married woman. l0ls.n i'm like thinkin "hell0? i'm like stil below 20?" bud its a valuable lesson! gals take dat! *winkiEs.

i reali h0pe things will smoothen out soon. bud thanks fer alwae bein dere 2 bear al my nonsense. hMms. i'm so sorrie fer being unreasonable dese daes. hMms. n u're alwaes bein so bearin each time i said dose nasty stuff 2 u fer nth n u'll alwaes jus b over dere listenin n n0rt leavin.its a small gesture. bud i reali appreciate it *hugs.

well so sorri fer d borin entry diaryx. bud i'm plain bored. =X

*// cheer0s

2005-04-15T00:08:00.000-07:00

dEarest diary.

hMms muz b wondering hows life fer me yea?

pretty great i guz. met a l0t of new frens n of c0z i don feel "unwanted" anim0re. =) bud somehow certain stuff haven been sort out. hMms. i h0pe time can smoothen things out. n when somedae we're both more comfortable on dat issue den i guz we'll t0k again ba.

hMms. i was wif SB on his bdae. hMms. met him ard n0on b4 we headed 2 suntec 2 get his stuff. he nidta re-stock his wardrobe. l0ls. he's 2 busi workin 2 d0 dat i guz. hMms. so dat dae was jus d perfect dae 2 spend all his savings! *wakaka. hMms. went 2 d adidas sh0ps n both nike sh0ps dere 2 l0ok ard. hMms. in d end he ended up onli buyin stuff frm dat 2 nike sh0ps. g0rt 2 shirts n another shirt frm each sh0p respectiveli n i g0rt 1 shirt 2! =D hMms. wanted 2 eat at sakae. bud dey're left wif counter seats. so i was pretty stubborn abt it guz. insisted not seating dere.=X we ended up in pizza hut in d end. l0ls. had dis stuffed crust veggie lover which b0th of us find it kinda disgustin. =X it was 1 of d worst veggie l0ver stuff crust i've tasted. n dat meanie mo even joked dat it was due 2 d waitresses were mostli aunties. so he bet d chef was also 1. -.-!! hMms. was heading 2 play bowlin b4 we passed by samuel n kevin [hMms. is dat d correct spellin? =/] d both of us spotted a pair of jeans we liked. so we decided 2 get it. *wakaka! n guz wad diary? i l0ok nice in it! =D hMms in addition dey gave me jerry's nite version album! l0ls. was grinnin frm ear 2 ear den. =X headed 2 marina square 2 bowl den. played 7 games each b4 our hands were completely tired out. i had such a hard time playin man! durin d 1st 3 games balls r alwaes headin 2wards d drain. -.-! n of c0z he had gd time laffin! so mean rite? hMms bud he taught me howta bowl tho. =X n in d end i manage 2 hit 9 pins in a row!! bud nort fer l0ng of c0z. =X headed 2 d adidas shop at somewhere opp far east 2 get his pair of shoes he's been eyein fer quite some time. hMms bud in end. it was sold on d dae it was launched. l0ls. he was pretty disappointed tho. bud he finalli settled on quite a nice pair of shoes. n g0sh dey gave him such a pair of nice shoelaces! n he was like puttin on airs abt his shoes n laces! *blEahs. hMms headed 2 paragon later 2 l0ok at a wallet i spotted fer him few daes back. bud guz wad diary? d loaded chap spotted sth more ex. n is like 100 bucks fer 1 wallet! -shakie head- he spendin money like drinkin water man! bud nvms. soon he'll b broke soon after treatin his br0s. *wakaka =X opps.
hMms i treated him 2 d vege store in far east after dat. l0ls. fer d 1st time he claimed dat vege fd is nort bad. =D hMms. bud it was damn awkard when we're eatin n dere was dis couple kept starin at d sh0ppin bags. l0ls. n u can c d way dey're eyein at each content in each bag. l0ls. hMms. headed home after dat. n i guz dats all fer dat dae! =) well sB u can now go chiong lia0s h0rs? =P

hMms. went 2 indonesia on sat n sun. had fun dere wif d lit' angels dere. hMms jus simply adore d lit' kids dere man. altho is tough conductin d activities dere. bud at least at d end of d dae dey manage 2 benfit sth dat we've taught! =)

hMms. nth reali special happen on mon. hMms bud went out 2 bj's party on tues. b4 dat i headed 2 city link 2 get his n mori's gift. h0pe dey like it tho. =) met some realli nice peeps. such as sR [pretty b0i].
rachel.weiwen.felicia. hMms. met bJ n his peeps at d bowlin alley firz. hMms. had a game dere along wif dem. l0ls.. bud d sc0res aint dat great. =X headed 2 d chalet later n deres's when we started 2 noe each other better after a game of dai dee. l0ls. n deres when felicia n i agreed dat sR looked a bit feminine n deres when sR gort his nic pretty b0i. l0ls. felicia n weiwen r great out-goin peeps. =) of coz pretty boi is also fun 2 by bein builled by me n felicia 2 b d cocktail guy of d nite. l0ls. n weiwen was alwaes suab by d 3 of us. =X hMms. d 5 of us in d end t0t of a wae 2 sab0 d bdae guy. l0ls. added all d unwanted fd n all kinds of chilly on a plate b4 smashin in his face. l0ls. bud in end d chilly stuff stung his eyes pretty badli. =X felt very bad den. bud so glad he is ok later. =D hMms. after cuttin d cake. i went ard walkin al0ne 2 njoy d cool nite breeze, bud bJ came out n accompanied me. hMms. ended up hafin 1 more game of bowlin wif him. had a great time chattin wif him as well. well i'm reali very thankful pal. u're alwaes dere 2 hear my woes n cheerin me up after dat. thanks a million. =) *hugs
mummy n daddy me n pick me up after dat. had a great time den. =)

hMms. went 2 ting house 2 borrow her com 2 burn some cds. yst. hMms. had a great time t0kin 2 her den. =) oh yea! my sistas n i r goin out on sat!! wEee! can c all my jiEs again! =D mummy came n fetch me later 2 my cousin's place 2 teach her den. hMmms. n headed home after dat.

practically slack at home d wh0le dae 2dae. =X

*//sLackinG..

2005-04-07T16:43:00.000-07:00

dEarest dairy..

i'm a n0tti gal u n0e? c0z i'm completely r0tting at h0me. l0ls.

on mondae i had dis fren company till afternoon den went out wif bel n benn0 2 get their humans b0oks. went 2 accompany benno fer his hair cut n went 2 l0ok at dis $499 bike. he kept tellin me n bel 2 get it fer his bdae. n we teased him 2 gif us 8 diff frens name n den d 10 of us pulled out $50 each 2 buy him dat. l0ls. went 2 jE popular n started arguing. n guz wad was isiz abt diary? dey wanted 2 share d QnA b0oks 2gether! siGhs. dose 2 guys r reali g0ne case man. -shakie head- l0ls. bud thinkin back i'm like exactli like dem till like oct last yr? l0ls. =X

on tuEs nEhs went 2 teach my cousin in d late afternoon. realised dat each time i g0 dere it will alwaes rain. =/ anyway went 2 help her wif her compo. n b0y am glad she is more attentive dis time. =) realli had fun teachin her fer d firz time after like 2 yrs plus when i was helpin her off n on kind. =D hMmms. was suppose 2 help her 2dae bud it was cancelled due 2 her maths lesson. hMms. gonna gif her thrice a wk soon i guz. her mid yr exams r approachin. =/ went fer religious class in d evening till 9+.chatted wif bJ on d f0ne in d nite. hMms. till like 4 plus in d morning. he reali gave me a great encouragement jab.*blEahs d both of us crapped a l0t 2. =P hMms. he is having his bdae party on 12th. haven t0t of wad 2 get him yet. =/

wed. which was yst? hMms. us usual i slept till 1 plus like a pig n r0tted at home till mummy came home at 7 plus 2 go keane's palce fer dinner. well i guz i had been a quite a gd gal 2dae ba. woke up at 7 plus [g0sh. i realized its been ages since i woke up so earli man.] 2 go jogging wif bel. *blEahs. h0pe i l0st s0me weight tho. l0ls. hMms. after joggin which is like 8 plus. i watched some cartoons on kids central b4 pigging till 2 in d afternoon. l0ls. hMms. dat guy [mY] called again. n i realised i've been like so mean 2 him. cant believe i told him off dat time damn harshly when he jus volunteered 2 send me home when i was out dat nite. l0ls. aint i so mean? =X

hMms. pardon me fer my b0ring entry.

hMms. jus received a disheartenin news frm a fren. i h0pe he is feeling better.
hEys lit angel its n0rt d end of d world yet. as l0ng as your dreams don die. nth will den b able 2 extinguish your passion. when dere is a will there is a way yea? it doesnt mark d end of ur dreams. bud instead it shld ignite d passion more in u 2 pursue it. i'm all behind u. =)

my nEw sh0es.....

2005-04-03T11:50:00.000-07:00

dEarest diary.

guz wad.....

I FINALLY GOT D ADIDAS SH0E!
*blEahs. daddy gort it fer me 2dae. =X i bet xianie knew wad am i t0kin abt since i've been eyeing that pair of shoes fer a long long time. i first saw dat pair of shoes at d bugis adidas shop. n have been visiting that pair of shoes ever since. *siGhs. bud sad 2 sae. that pair of shoes r made of silk. n it cannort b washed. n guz wad? my shoes r white . [try highlighting d word *winkies] bud nevertheless i'm still damn happy abt it even though i gotta make sure each time i wear i gotta b damn extremely alert. [kinda pathetic huh? ] =D well. mummy is nort happy abt it though. bud hu cares? l0ls

hMms. have been goin on a shoppin spree wif my parents since yst. went 2 paragon wif grandma yst. d 3 of dem had g0t demselves each pair of footwear. n we went 2 eat in my favourite restuarant. haha. lurvE my dad l0tsa. =) n daddy brought me 2 marina south yst! [erms is dat d place name? =/] played my firz ever pool game with daddy! n guz wad. i only managed 2 get 1 ball in. *bish. bud hey! no sniggerin alrites. its my firz attempt playin dat u noe? *hummph! l0ls bud i realli had fun dere! =D headed home after dat n began playin with my new toy. my new printer. yups. uncle thomas came n fixed [finally. daddy can stop nagging now] it in d afternoon fer me. been playing with d various functions. =X t0k on d fone later n off i went 2 slp after dat.....

oh yea diary. guz wad. i met 6 sistas yst mornin! hMms. bud sadly it wasnt consider a great reunion. hMmms. i was super duper late n ended up causin aud nort bein able 2 join us fer d meal. hMms. it kinda seem weird thou yst. *shrugs. sorrie sistas. i'm reali am... bud no worries. d nxt time we meet up it'll b a better 1 rite? =D

hMms.was woken up by grandma early in d mornin. had 2 go n pray grandpa n my great grandmom. fetched joe mum's family n had breakfast 2gether before heading fer d temple. *g0sh it was damn hot when we arrived. miss grandpa l0tsa when i saw his urn 2dae. *shrugs. after prayin n everythin we headed to d pasir ris kids farm. daddy wanted 2 bring d lit' fatso dere 2 have some fun. l0ls. bud it ended up keane n i were havin fun instead of him alone. fed d k0is n l0oked at d lit' ducklings. [*blEahs felt like a lit' kid den. =X] n guz wad! i finally saw a dog been groomed 2dae! hahas. dere was a pet shop filled with lit' puppies near d kids farm. had a great time dere. =) esp when d fatso n me were nort quarrelin when we're dere. l0ls.

went 2 suntec to sh0p sh0p. gort my shoes. while dad gort another pair of sandals himself. n i spotted a damn nice adidas jacket! gonna save money n buy it soon. *grins. went fer dinner. n finally i'm h0me............=)

simin!! welcome home! =)

i promise i'll cherish d times i spent with u dese few daes. bud it'll end soon..pretty soon. its jus so amazing how u made me felt like i'm on d top of d world now.....

my lit' story started on d firz of april..

*hugs =)

its a new beginning. =)

2005-03-31T06:03:00.000-08:00

its very eventful somehow. dese few daes. hahas. bud finally i've gort all d ans i wan. all of it. n u noe sth. i'm ready 2 whole-heartedly to take a big step in my new single life. =)

safbEar. thanks a lot. u've finally answered all of the questions i've been wanted to ask. you did nort forget those promises u've given to me before. bud somehow at that point of time when things just go wrong. both of us did not gif each other time 2 cool down n think. n i jus kept myself involve endless things 2 keep myself busy. so its our fault den our relationship ended. hMmms. bud now when i realised u really did love me den. when we're together. dats all thats matters. its all over now. n i'm glad u n i r moving n approaching towards our dreams. someday i hope time will heal d pain n everythin. haha. bud for now i noe we'll b mutual frens now.

thank u sho much fer being my guardian angel for so long. being dere whenever i nid u when we're 2gether den. alwaes pampering me like a small kid so as 2 c make life easier fer u. =P haha still remember d times when we go sch 2gether. givin each other wake-up calls. meeting fer breakfast bud alwaes cancelling it in d end when u couldnt wake up.d times when we c d stars 2gether. d way u alwaes had a shoulder for me 2 lean on or cry. d times when we're mad wif each other bud it nvr lasted 4 more dan a dae. d way we alwaes tease each other of being a daddy's gal. or mummy's boi yea small kiddo in d family. l0ls. hMms. d dreams we planned 2 share 2gether. d times whenever i'm done u'll sing wif me d 3 lit' monkeys 2 cheer me up. d memory album. d keychains. d winnie d pooh file. d times when we reached home late bc0z of me waiting fer u or d other wae round bud ended up yakkin on d f0ne again when we reach home. when we had 2 remain low profile when my mom ish on xtreme strict l0ok out. d sakae meals. d times when u alwaes grumble i kept getting white n black shirts fer u. l0ls. d 2nd floor memories. ur ol n new flat memories. d breakfast time at d tamah jurong market.d 2 doggies. precious moments figurines. keane's n ur lit' child play. d jigsaw puzzles. d disney princess. d times when we spent l0tsa of 1 dollars on d winnie d pooh thingy. den in d end had 2 pull strings frm ur toy r us peeps to open d machine out fer us 2 choose. hahas. d ju-on movie. l0ls. d endless slpless nites jus 2 make sure i slp b4 u do. d times when ur eyes sparkle when u t0k abt ur dreams. claire.tosh.s0ls.

=) thanks a million n a thousand times. i'm so glad we've now decided 2 go our separate ways. somehow when we meet again. i believe a new story will develope den. bud somehow let time heal all d mess n everything yea? i'll c yer soon? probably in a few years time i guz? haha. bud fer now. i'll moving on 2wards my dreams n u will 2. hEes. all d best fer ur future. i love u a l0t. bud dats in d past now? haha now i'll haf u as my angelic guardian angel bear? l0ls. take care my fren. i'll c u soon.

yup yup. i'm moving on now. seeing d new world. i'm all geared up 2 start my new life. on my own. with my family. close peeps. n angelic guardian angel bear who i'll meet somedae. years down d rd..

take care l0tsa. angelic guardian angel bear. thanks fer ur understanding.

last dae of d month. n a new beginning.

11 feb 2002 . 18th feb 2003.

i'vE been m0ved.

2005-03-29T05:02:00.000-08:00

*blEahs. i c0oked 2dae! prepared lunch to appease my dad. n apparently he don sound so angry when he spoke to me 2dae. =D *lala. felt guilty after thinking real hard last nite. *shrugs. hahas bud my lunch is quite edible lars. =X d rice taste ok. n sh0 does d veggies! l0ls. sh0o i'm ll nort such a bad cook after all. =D

went out wif xianie in d afterno0n to iJc. fer a gd cause yea? c0z her fren ish down wif chicken pox. sh0 we helped her post her appeal. thru her fren's bf of c0z. =) n u noe sth? DON EVER WALK 2 IJC FROM WOODLANDS MRT! its damn l0ng l0rs. walk till my legs were aching n i'm sweating big time while walkin dere. l0ls. bud xianie din had a great time either. her ears were aching. l0ls. kept complainin 2 her abt d distance while we're on d wae dere. l0ls. n she perspired as much as i did. =X anw after dat we went causeway. to have our lunch.went mos burger. wif j0landa. [met her in causeway] hMms. had a fun time 2gether n we set off sh0ppin fer a bdae card. finally gort 1. n its a precious moments card! wEee! =D [l0ls. i sound like as if i'm getting fer myself. =X] hMms. n i'm suppose to helped my cousin fer her eng 2dae. bud wanted to watch a movie wif xianie. sh0 i ended up postponin it 2 tml. bud i ended up in xianie's place now. bloggin. =P l0ls.

going fer grandma house fer dinner! =) *mish her c0okin to bits!!

i almost got d wrong impression dat dere is still hope fer us dis afternoon. bud i sudden realise. dey r false hopes. n i shldn't be pinning for anything more. its nort easy 2 stand on my own feet now. u nvr knew how hurtful dose times were. bc0z den u're pursuing some1 u've l0st den. while i'm just at d back trying to pick up d pieces. i find myself stupid. bud why cant i just snapped out of it? till now? [ i cant helped bud feel i'm just a spare tyre to u....]

*// nnaaggiinng

2005-03-29T01:04:00.000-08:00

dEar diary..

guz wad..

*blEahs. wad an eventful dae today. i gort scolding from daddy again!! [*^&%$%^%$#$#&(*&)]
it had been a l0ng time since he did dat! well n guz wad?
-- just bc0z i'm reluctant 2 g0 fer d stupid micro ppt c0urse on sat.
--mummy just brought back a 6 in 1 printer. [inclusive of a fax machine. scanner..blah blah] n i din touch it. or attempt to fix it according to wad he sae.
--not being patient about the small things dat happen in my life dat will contribute to me bc0ming a "wad type" person in future.

WAD NONSENSE MAN!! -.-!!

heys d printer thingy ish damn complicated! you had to install the software n due to its various functions. u're suppose to link this n dat. n yes. i noe i'm suppose to read d manual instead of just refusing d task. bud i'm just a greenhorn in doin dat! siGhs. cant he like gif me more time?? n i admit it was wrong of me to nort wanting to attend d damn course since you paid fer it. bud its like i'm reali tired!! we went cycling in d morning n swimmin n stuff. n i'm like suppose to go fer dat damn thingy straight after dat. *b0os. n he claims i'm lazy. jus bc0z i slept till 1.30++ 2dae. bud i did wad u asked me to do! i vacuumed d fl0or. washed up d dishes. cleared d table. isnt dat like enuff! b0os b0os!ish like i don used to dat n now since i'm doing it. shldnt u like gif me more time 2 adapt! *siGhs.
bud at least. my mummy ish on my side dis time. l0ls. =X

anyway went out with benno in d afternoon. hMms. went to collect his jeans with him at lucky plaza n he accompanied me to paragon to buy a bdae gift. l0ls. kept complainin 2 him abt me being fat. l0ls. alm0st drove him crazy. =X anw sh0 glad 2 c my lit' br0 again. l0ls.he's still as skinny as ever. =P

hMms. went out with mummy in d nite. n i realli enjoyed myself..=)

i just realise how stupid am i. i'm just nort ready to face you yet. why do u still affect me so much? just so much. i really don understand myself now. not 1 bit.

*// =)

2005-03-27T15:44:00.000-08:00

chEer0s.
hEes. kinda busy ever since like last fri? hMmms. cant believe 1 wk passed so past. hahas. came back frm d trip on mon nite. hMms. it was pretty alright. i din even went on any rides? hahas. n notta even mention i haven even went sh0pping! *blEahs. jus simply accompany my grandma. she's wheel-chair bound. sh0 mummy n i jus accompanied her in d apartment most of d time. yups. bud it was pretty nice 2 spend some quiet time with my granny. hahas. realise she's not as bad as wad i tot she is. =)

hMms. have been g0in out recentli. with xianie. vanessa. bJ. n i jus came back not l0ng ag0 frm cindy's jie place. haha. went dere 2 t0n al0ng with vanessa. geradine. justin. hMmms. been sh0ppin a l0t! hahas. my cash ish really running out s0on! bud i guz i wont b sh0 tight after abt 1 wk later? hahas. g0nna return 2 w0rk s0on. fer 2 wks. n later i'll b on my sh0ppin spree again! =X
well. sh0 glad i've managed 2 meet ting dat dae al0ng wif xianie. i guz our sisterly b0nd ish very amazing. even though i've nort seen her since new yr. bud d moment when xianie n i saw her. i jus suddenli had dis very attached feeling 2 her straight awae. =) d threesome of us jus simply had a nice chat over d desserts dat ting made. t0ok some pics using her new hp 2. =) now thinkin back i reali felt extremely fortunate 2 have my 5 sistas. dey've realli been showerin me wif l0tsa l0ve dese few yrs. *blEahs. bud i;m sweet 2 dem as well! hahas. alwaes coming up wif new pranks 2 play on dem. =X l0ls. bud i reali l0ve dese 5 gals l0tsa yea? =)

well as i've mentioned earlier dear diary. hMms. went sent0sa 2 stay on fri . had a fun time dere. went cycling. beaching. building sandcastle! l0ls. kinda tanned now. n my mom ish fuming. hahas. bc0z i've finally turned whiter ever since d last swim. n now i'm tanned again. =X checked out d nxt dae. hMms. n g0rt forced 2 g0 fer mt micro ppt straight after dat. c0urse. *sighs. n halfway thru d course receive a msg frm van 2 catch a movie al0ng wif d others. went 2 catch d mid nite show. d eye 10 at jp. (erms. nort sure if dats d name. =X) its a movie definitely not worth watching!! cheap scares! bud i don deny i had my eyes covered most of d time. bud heys!! i understood d story pl0t alrites! its jus d sound effects dat freaked me out. *b0os. anw b4 d movie d 7 of us (lawerence k0r. cindy jie. sherry jie. van. ger. me. justin) were chatting at d fd court. actualli 2 b exact we're telling ghost stories. haha. n half way d lights went off n sherry jie g0rt freaked out. l0ls. anw after dat we went 2 cindy's place. played ard till 4+ n after dat i n van decided 2 turn. our energy level realli reached d minimum den. =X w0ke up at 10+ 2dae. n i was d last 1. =X watched d incredibles b4 c0ming h0me. n now i'm bloggin here! =)

i hate ur promises. its h0lding me back. every1 of dem dat u made. u're right. time did prove everything. it proved dat u're not wad u t0ld me u'll be.....

my 1st entry =)

2005-03-18T17:32:00.000-08:00

. anGreat! My blog ish all set with da help xianie! thanks sista =) wasted ur afterno0n away while u're trying to get things d0ne with my blog. *phew. bud i still nid yer help 2 get my tag board thingy d0ne. =X

well 2005 had started. N time seems 2 z0om by. its already march 18 by n0w. the posting will b out s0on n all of my cl0se peeps of the same age will b proceeding on 2 their respective schools s0on. hMmms. many things had happens since the beginning of the year. collecting my "O"s results. certain people entered n left ur world. coming to a crossroad- choosing of schs. well n many more. =) bud i'm still sho glad n grateful. through all these pits moments. i've g0rt many caring peeps 2 cheer me al0ng d way n most importantly always assuring me their presence whenever i nid dem. =) hMmms bud i still mish dis lit' close fren of mine. haven been t0kin 2 him since dat quarrel..
-shurgs- jus hope we'll be able to clear the air somedae.
bud ish heart-warming to kn0w my 5 sistas friendship ish still goin as strong? =) hEes.
hMms. had been goin out fer movies fer the past few wks. *blEahs. spent a l0t as well. =X well bud i cut down a l0t on shopping! sighs. guz i do haf p0or financial management. =/ hMms will b leaving again tml morning n will b back on mondae nite. =) accompanyin my paternal grandparents up to genting. after when i'm back n when i'm done with d stupid grounding punishment. i'll g0tta go on full-time sh0pping spree den.. weeEe!!

hMms. SB msged me twice when i'm overseas recently which was extremely surprising. hahas.nvr felt myself smiling rite deep in my heart fer a l0ng time. hMms. he's still as busy as ever. bud i'm really very happy for him. he had achieved the results he deserved n i bet pretty s0on. he'll b able 2 do the course he had been dreaming fer since yrs ag0.
[ i'll b crossing my fingers over here for u.. strive hard!] =)

i'll promise to be the pillar of support fer u. anitime. anidae.aniwhere