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Monday, July 25, 2005

heys heys. so sorrie fer l0sin out in contact with this bl0g fer a super l0ng time. and kinda sad that this will be my last entry as well. =)
life's been great. being stil so cl0se knitted with my sistas. sick. bJ stil =) life in sp is stil ever vibrant and of c0z d stiff competition dat u gotta face almost every other dae. my family is all well and keane is definitely rising up 2 his capabilities as a pr0misin young chap in future. =) anw i'm signin off here frm n0w. n u guys out dere who haf my links.. do remove it yea? hEes take care peeps. =)
*muaCkies

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Friday, May 27, 2005

dEarest diaryx.

came back from camp since last week. d indonesia trip. making a consecutive 3 days visits to the school. and spending nice times with my sp peeps. sistas. n cl0se peeps. =)

well camp was definitely fun! hahas. my group was espran0! hEes. had super nice group mates n 2 fantastic gLs [mac n vict0r]. had t0tal fun over there. did amazing race and d flat painting and ice-breaking games. felt pretty b0nded with them since the first day. =) hMms. went over to poly marina on d 2nd day. did kayakin in d super bright and sunny yet h0t morning . [erms. pard0n me for the spelling error. =X] played captain's ball fer like abt 2 hrs during the super h0t h0urs in the afternoon. but during the b0th times my gr0up w0n. =X was t0tally sun-burnt after that. hahas. felt that i t0ok over xianie's "monkey butt" reputation. l0ls. had bbq then and kinda had dis "scary" experience. hahas. but thank g0d bel bel n bJ was there fer me den. thanks blury king n bJ. =) hMms. had a hilarious night event later on. the "bap0k night". l0ls! had tremendous fun dat night. laughin out our lungs as the guys from each group wore revealing clothes. acting like 1 during the interviewing session. =X l0ls! hMms. had a nice chat with m0re dan 6 gLs and other 2 freshies wh0 were usmani and samantha! =D hMms. played truth or dare till 5+am among us. hahas. asked l0tsa qns abt each other and other dumb stuff. hahas. realise my seniors are a great bunch and so are my other FO campmates. hMmms.became very groggy the next dae th0. since we're suppose to wake up at 7 plus. sam n i were like practically draggin ourselves outta d slping bag. bud din really felt tired after when we reached sp again. had telematch and b4 dat we're suppose 2 do some preparations fer our talent time but i was t0o tired so i jus slept on the table fer half an hour. oh yea we had a bowling session 2gether as well th0. =) had fun then. esp when we're on cheering each other on whether u're on my team or norts. pretty nice yea? =) hMms. had telematch and sometime fer our preparations again. and in d end my group was like producing crap. l0ls. bud mac manage 2 save it later which i shall n0rt sae aniting anymore. =X hMms. but thank g0d we din g0rt last fer it. =D had a disco nite later and i was like halfway thru it i g0rt totally tired out. went out and managed 2 chat with a few new met f0 campmates and seniorz. hMmms. went fer a night walk later. kinda a few spooky experience th0. i meant outta d 4 spooky places we went. dere were 3 events happening in 3 different places. l0ls. hMms. shall nort comment further on dat as well. =X couldnt stand it anymore by 3 plus in d morning after when d night walk was done and i went offta 2 slp.

br0ke camp after all the prize presentation at abt 10+am n dad came and fetch me. reached home after lunch at ard 12 plus and i went offta slp immediately till 8+ in d nite b4 heading fer dinner. slept at 12 plus after dat 11+ d nxt m0rnin. guess i was really shagged outta den. left sing fer indonesia ard no0n after meeting y0ng k0r fer lunch wif my parents. treated him to tCc. b4 b0arding the ferry. =X went over there with him and yea g0rt ready all d preparations fer d nxt dae. hMms. and i whipped up dinner fer the 6 adults dere. ATTENTION! THEY WERE PERFECTLY FINE AFTER EATING IT TILL THE NEXT DAY! =D hMms. came back in d evening and i was feeling so tired out again since i slept fer less dan 5 h0urs there. l0ls. hMms. slept at 9pm+ dat nite once i reached home. =X hadta w0ke up early the next m0rnin at 7 plus again th0. =(

went fer d religious day camp on sun and realised jia yi n jin zhi were n0tti gals man! hahas. had zixuan into my group den. felt that she and jiayi reali share a very harmonious sisterly b0nd despite dem cing each other everydae at h0me. =X hMms. br0ke camp at abt 4plus n0on. went to marine parade withe keane's family wif my family and granny. fell down while i was riding the kid scooter den. and it was a dumb fall th0 when i come to think of it. l0ls. =X and yes my leg was t0tally difigured now! had l0tsa scratches on my b0th legs during the telematch and now i had more after the fall. -.-!! nvm. i'm trying means and ways to heal it asap. =D
but if u're had any ways 2 d0 it asap mus tell me okies?=X

hMmms. turned in super early dat nite as well. 9+pm record again. =X

hMms. went to sch earli in d morning with gene on tues morning.heard all the different kinda t0ks. and during lunch i sneak off with my FO campmates. hahas. felt pretty guilty t0 leave gene at the back th0. =X hang ard d club to chit chat with more dan a bunch of 10+ freshies cum seni0rs. hahas. t0ked abt d scandals of the camp. *ahem. l0ls! and other topics. had a hilarious time while we're v0ting whereta g0 and all. sMac is indeed happening man! *r0ck on! =D

hMms. realised i'm in d same class as usmani! hahas. d way he acts is exactly like fauzi man! mish dat chap l0tsa th0. =X hMms. in d end we headed down to plaza sing b4 heading to meriden fer p0ol sessions. al0ng d bus we're all having fun taking pics and j0kin here and dere. =) hMms. din realli knew h0wta play den. sh0 yee aung.juliet.b0on pin and i headed to ps again t0 sh0p. hahas. =X was l0oking fer a gift fer dis peep of mine and i think i kinda gonna get it. but i nid money th0. =(

went back 2 c0llect my stuff frm usmani. sh0t a couple of shots den t0o. =X hahas. j0sh and usmani was kind enuff to let mi play whenever i want t0. hEes. anyway i rushed off t0 meet kEn later. had dinner at plaza sing b4 heading to teach khang kai. hahas. felt sh0 bad dat he hadta send mie dere again each time i g0.hMms.anw dat chap reali had learning disability in eng wise. still grinding my head on howta make him absorb better. bud felt bad dat he gort a tiny whack on his palm by mie when he was nort concentrating den. n it was a cane. moreover i think his mom hit him again after i left. =(

hMmms. went 2 accompany mummy to have her dinner and headed h0me. chatted with pretty b0i fer a while b4 i turned in. =)

felt super tired now. shall update d remainin daes tml. =X

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

g0nna go fer camp s0on!! hEes. gonna disappear int0 da thin air~ =)

xianie : hEes. i gonna mish yer l0tsa 2~! too bad after when i'm back from camp i'll be leaving singap0re on d exact day. =( and its like after u're back from camp and i'm leaving. but it d0esnt s0und as bad since we met up t0day! =) hEes. take care of yourself yea? hMms. meanwhile u can listen to the s0ng i'm sending you right now when u mish mie!! =D

tiNg : if aniting happens again when i'm nort ard this few days you must find xianie yea? BUT must keep mi updated!! =D d0n miss me 2 much too as well alrights? =P d0n try and keep things to youself yea? h0pe yer have an enjoyable time in your "new" environment in ur r0om alrites? =)

aud : hMmms. h0ls are approaching! so dese few daes u better don be slacking!! =X give way at times to jL yea? =) hahas. remember n0tta watch the movie which i reserved already!! =X anything can msg mi yea? but i cant guarantee if there is reception there. l0ls. but i'll try and reply asap okies? *huggies

est : keep mugging w0rs!! i'll be here r0oting fer yer!! =D meanwhile thanks fer helping me 2 upl0ad da new s0ng in my bl0g! =) when i'm back i'll be expecting more pics of myuki from yer yea? =) take care l0tsa 2 alrites jies? =)

yiN : hEes. if u miss during dis wh0le wk you can listen to the song i send u!! =P i noe u'll b perfectly fine with you sweetie ba0bei. bud u if u need help you must find some1 to spill your w0es okies? anything can als0 msg mie w0rs. will try and reply yer asap. =)

bEl bEl : hahas. if u happen to read dis i wanna tell yer i cant b your fren fer all the way to 24th. =( wont be cing yer online fer a l0ng time. bud keep an eye on lit' benn0 yea? but you can d0n friend me onli fer dis period of time okies? =)

kEn : hEes. u better keep your hp on in the nite! well dat is if i can get 2 call yer den. l0ls. anyway take g0od care of yourself yea? *huggies dearie. =)
oh yea! u noe wad shld u reserve fer me meanwhile! =X

dEarest diaryx. i sounded like i'm gonna b leaving fer a l0ng time. bud its kinda l0ng fer me since i cant contact dem fer a week!! =( but i'll be seeing all my cl0se peeps soon after 24th! =D hEes. i'll still be crossing my fingers if there is reception there since my cuzzin jus t0ld mie he isnt sure if there is over dere. =( hMmms. jus now when all my jies were telling mie 2 take care and dey will miss me and all dat i kinda felt like tearing th0.
=( hMmms. bud 1 wk will past s0on yea? =)

p.s. i'm ol enuff to take care of myself!! =D

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

dearest diaryx.
hahas. just finish crapping with bJ. realised our friendship can really cover up all the distances and stuff. despite not contacting for like a l0ng time but the moment when we settled down to have a good talk. heart matters will automatically be poured out and of course thinkin of the lamest topics to share. =P
have been chatting online till late in the nite recently. *yawns. and i jus finished up with 3 guys. kEn.bel bel and bJ. and their replies are always damn fast! hahas. and i'm always laughing like hell in front of the com like an idiot. =X bud nvms. i enjoy their company 2 bits.
haven been seeing my sisters online recently as well. except yiN ba? hahas. wonder what are they busy with? =/ hMmms...
oh yea! i l0ve the kingdom of heaven to bits man! went to watch it with kEn,aldis and 2 other of their friends last tues. aldis find it b0ring! but i lurve it instead! hEes. altho the setting is like troy [altho i don deny thats why i'm so attracted to watch it at first =X] find it esp touching esp when the king was dying soon and the chivalry of the knights and all.
=)
went to sp recently for the camp briefing. realise dat many of my camp mates are from the same course. =) n the no. of gals in my course kinda out- numbered the guys there. saw a few hunks there as well!! esp the president of the sMa club. he's gorgeous man! =X bud too bad. he's in his third year. gonna graduate soon. =( he's tall! he has 6 pacz! he's tan! but most importantly...he's charming!! awww~~~ l0ls!! i sounded like some kinda bimbo. =X anyway after briefing on the stuff to bring and all we're dismissed. was suppose 2 meet ken den. but was feeling groggy den. so i hadta cancel it in d end. wanted to get 2 grandma's place to rest but i was dragged out in d end by j0e ma. sent keane to school before heading to l0t1 to deposit a check. bought some stuff for grandma to eat and bought a top for myself again. l0ls. okok. i noe i'm a great spender. =X had dinner after a 2hrs plus l0ng nap and came h0me. =)
sent dad off yesterdae. =) things were pretty hectic since he's going off in a group with more than 20 plus people? hahas. anyway jas wasnt dere. =( t0t could see her there since fionna jie is leavin with dad. nvms. hMms. headed 2 t2 to have tea with my mom at coffee bean b4 heading to teach k.k.
realise k.k is great with maths. understanding addition and subtraction within an hour. hahas. and his focus for maths is definitely l0nger than for eng and chinese. -shakie head- received news from wanshi that she gort 79 for paper 2. expect her to get abt 75 or lower but she performed better than what i expected. =) i mean since zhi ha0 whose eng standard nvr go below 95 could get 85 this time which meant the paper is tough? *shrugs. bud i've done my best to help her this time. =)
after tuition i went to eat steamboat with delvin daddy and his family al0ng with mummy. l0ls. ate a l0t that night. and i meant a l0t!! even the waitress commented that we had a big appetite. =X well we chatted over dinner and i laughed like hell or rather d loudest. delvin daddy kept cracking stupid j0kes den and i scalded my both hands as a result. *sniff.
went over to mac to continue chatting since the place is gonna close den. and i finally get to eat the yogurt!! =D
well headed home after dat and i chatted till 2 b4 heading to bed. =X
w0ke up by weil0ng's msg in d noon. stupid chap. =P hMms. den msged him fer awhile b4 i went 2 d0 some HOUSEWORK!! c dat my dearest sistaz??! i did HOUSEWORK!! *nose pointing towards the sky* =P
went fer religious class in d late afternoon till 9 plus in da nite. *yawns.

opps. i br0ke my promise 2 pretty b0i again. its 2 plus now. l0ls.

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Friday, May 13, 2005

dEarest diaryx.
so sorry. my com have been down recently. and somehow it w0rked miraculously this morning. =)
anyway life have been great for me. realised time is a great healer for pain. didnt really t0ok that advice from my friends then. but anyway i realise i'm facing more to it now. and i felt those mixed up feelings have subsided gradually and i'm now l0oking things at a more optimistic view. =)
oh yea. i've been reading as well.windows for the crown prince. it's kinda a quite heavy book. about this teacher, Elizabeth Gray Vining teaching the crown prince of japan. the content is kinda heavy though. but its definitely an eye-opener for me. =)
life been great for me. as usual teaching khang kai. and i kinda suspect that he has some kinda learning disability. i mean his focus ability is very short. and i meant very. anyway its very satisfying though. i mean despite having to go through with him several times using several methods on some vocab,at the end of the day when you realised he's absorbing at the point of time i really felt my efforts were paid off. =)
haven been seeing my sisters much though. xianie is in camp. ting is with aaron.est had to revise her work. yiN busy with her sch starting activities. aud in school. nvm. i'll call them 2 watch house of wax on mon. alrites jiEs? hMms. saw aud in sch on wed. went 2 c0llect d cert with b0on hou and her. hahas. that chap is still the same. still as noisy as ever and i'm still as loud as ever! hahas. anyway we chatted with many teachers. like mr neo. ms justina. ms lim. mr chiam. the office staff. mr aw. mr mansor =) and we t0ok great pains 2 l0ok for our dearest mr neo then! hahas. almost walked finish every part of the school 2 l0ok for him. anyway we went 2 our ex 4F classroom 2 t0ok pictures as well!! hahas. jus the 3 of us fooling around in an empty classroon. but it brought back many memories tho. like how lani always updated the board every morning. the way the teachers always posed around as they teach. the eventse happening in the class and other precious recollection. =) had total fun time with them man! 4f r0cks!! u guys are really one of the greatest bunch of peeps i'll remember for life man!
oh yea. i'm done with my job since tues. =X finally all the accounts are closed and i'm freed! okiEs. so after my camp on 17th-21th all peeps out there are free 2 call me out! =D was intending to organise another outing for my sistas again. =)
went out with kEn too as well. been to queensway to shop around. hahas. he's a pretty good shopping company too. =X spotted this bag n shades. think i gonna get it after my camp. yups yups. anyway i ended up spending more dan him! his intention was to get clothes there while i'm jus suppose 2 b accompanyin him. but i ended up spending more dan him there. hahas. somebody shoot me for that. =X bought lotsa stuff recentli. pants from gior. 2 t0ps. a jeans skirt which i lurve 2 bits! hahas. kEn actually bargained for me!! =X hEes. anyway after that we headed to watch bJ's performance along with felicia. it was his graduating piece for his drama lesson. and i'm really very impressed with the actors/actresses. and bJ's effort really paid off this time!! well done pal! =D we had late dinner ard 10 plus at mos after the performance . bJ had to do his evaluation so he didnt manage to join though. but anyway we had a fantastic time without him too. =X while we're eating felicia kept crapping along with kEn. and we kept harping on the "feeling" issue. l0ls. left dere at 11 plus and headed to take a mrt from there. didnt realise somerset is still so crowded after 11. moreover its a weekdae the next day? hahas. anyway i only managed 2 reached home at 12 plus that day.
oh yea. i went out with benno as well. he's growing up tho. more consistent in his way of doing things? hahas. anyway we headed town that day to get keane's birthday gift. yup yup. t0ok neo-prints with him that day as well. hahas. we had some weird poses den as well. =X anyway he has a new phone! hmmphs! never mind. i'm waiting for xmas! daddy actualli pr0mise to get me a new hp for xmas!=D ~wEee!
daddy al0ng with his peeps will be leaving fot bangkok tomorrow and we'll only be back on the 18th. i'll nort b able to fetch him then. since i'm in camp in some other island? hahas. bon voyage wors ol dad! =)
i'm living on fine. and i love my new life. =)
[xianie.ting.aud.est.yiN.sher - sistas since 2001] =)

bEl bEl. i know maybe you'll never get to read this. but i just hope if you d0 get to read. i just wanna let you know u've been a fantastic friend.altho i cant help you in certain issues of heart matters. but i do hope i be like wad you did to me. assuring me and giving me all the comfort you can. =) jia u ba! u've started your new lifestyle well and i'll be there. anyway i think u should should stop thinkin the teacher is boring tho! =P blury bel bel!!
l0ve, yours lit' shery. =)

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

hMms. was feeling so confuse recently. about whatever dats happening around me. n my feelings. hahas. h0nestly i felt sh0 numb now diaryx. i mean after d0se tedious months. n h0w i pulled through till n0w. getting on with life. and i finally settled things in place. my emotions getting more sorted out more and i learn how 2 deal with it sl0wly and letting go.

but jus before things were m0ving smoothly. siCk t0ld me about how he felt and all. and dat marks d end of our friendship. i donno how l0ng will i get 2 see him again. he said things changed which i d0n reali noe wad isiz. hahas. mayb communication break down?

hMms. bud i guz i jus wanna tell him " siCk. thanks fer all d moments. when i felt d first fresh pain n being totally un-motivated 2 d0 anything. u're alwaes dere 2 encourage me n letting me feel ur presence around me.. so strongly. yea i miss d times 2. u beat me. i beat u. jus a call and we're off 2 some place 2 eat. d0se crazy times when we know we're both broke bud still insisted on eating d0se pricey stuff. d0se times when we're on d travelling journey. d stuff we talked abt. teasing here n dere. sharing our heart matters. headin 2 changi jus fer no reason. hahas. telling each other our childhood times n other things. but things are never d same now i guz? well if fate all0w we'll meet again yea? take care my dear pal. i don deny i'm still missing ur presence ard me and its a l0t a l0t.anw i jus wanna apologise fer wad i've done dat time 2. *huggies"

hMms. diaryx. dere is this friend 2..who entered my life recently. hahas. cant believe i felt numb bud yet i could still miss some1. kinda contridicting huh? hMms. didnt expect my stupid comment abt him durin our firz meeting could resulted in our relationship now. n guz wads d qns. " is dat person dere a boi or a girl?" hahas. and pretty s0on things started happenin so fast. we're getting 2 know each other better. hMms. d0se times we spent 2gether are very sweet n heart-warming. n yes i agree 2 wad he said. " i found a love dat is nort call l0ve." he's d firz guy i felt so weird within. i mean i'm like when d firz time i see some1. i'll immediately know whether i wanna get 2 n0e him better or norts. n i chose d nort route fer his case. bud things started turnin otherwise. bud i don haf d kinda feeling fer him like fer sB or kelvin. its jus so weird n kinda disturbin 2 fer no unknown reason.hahas bud anw both of us had agreed 2 leave things dis way. i mean its d best yea? dere'll no start n dere'll b no ending. =) jus a nice n simple friendship? *huggies

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Saturday, May 07, 2005

feeling super tired n0w. *yawns. wanted 2 slp at 1 plus yst. bud ended up "t0n" d whole nite. l0ls.

hMms. thurs. worked like hell again. den waited fer mummy till 6 plus. hMms. came h0me 2 settle d thingy fer d online b0okin fer d air tickets which we meddle with it till 2 plus in d morning d previous dae. -.- hMms. den went fer uncle's ong's mom funeral till 12 plus. =)

hMms. fri. managed 2 finish my w0rk at 3 plus n b0ss all0w me 2 g0 h0me earli. =D hMms. went 2 meet up bJ in jE. went 2 delifrance. hMms n went 2 jE library later 2 haf our 2nd round of f0od. =p l0ls. chatted like hell n xtremely l0ud ever since we met up. n ppl were like l0okin. bud we din reali give a damn. =X hMms. accompanied him 2 somerset fer his rehearsals. yups yups. reali enjoyed tremendousli when i'm with him. hMms. kinda spill everythin abt how i felt abt wadeva dat has happen which i din xpect myself 2. i mean i t0t i could like keep everything under d covers n everythin will b alrites n n0rt lettin a soul noe n no1 did so far until yst. l0ls. bud i realise i'm silly afterall d t0king. =X well dats bj i guz. d kinda i guy i don like 2 c. bc0z den i n0e i cldnt keep things 2 myself anim0re. *shrugs. bud i lurve his hair! awww! sh0 boyish l0ok n kinda ruggart kinda. bud 2 bad d hairstyle is on him n nort other guys. if n0rts...hiak hiak. i'll pounce on dem!! l0ls =X anw headed 2 teach k.k. afte dat

diaryx.d0 u noe k.k has magic powers? l0ls. he was suppose 2 d0 this colouring of a tooth. n in front of us dere was dis pic of him with a missing tooth. imagine him telling me how he transfer dat tooth on d colourin sheet. l0ls. n when i was helpin him wif his hmwk yst frm sch, he was suppose 2 write "mama" [chinese character].l0ls. n he ended up writing it until very stressed up. l0ls. he kept scratching his head n his face was like all crumpled up. =X kinda pity him bud his writings don seems 2 l0ok right. s0 i hadta erase n ask him 2 write again n again. =X

went 2 changi immediately after tuition. 2 send g0dpa off. yups yups. he's off 2 h0lland fer 3 mths. hMms. chatted with him n vanessa at c0ffee bean den. =) n g0sh! dat young lady g0rt such a nice fossil watch fer 138!! arrgh! d watch was super nice!! =( hMmphs! 2 bad my pay was n0rt as high as hers. =( hMms. after dat i wanted 2 g0 n eat supper den. sh0 we decided 2 take a cab 2 aunty susan dere 2 eat r0ti prata!!l0ls. realise i've been eating a l0t. bud nort exercising. =P hMms. was walkin al0ng d rd side of d airport bc0z we cldnt find d taxi stand dere! n we kept waving n waving bud none st0p of dem st0pped. finally 1 did!! *phew. while we're on d way dere d taxi uncle xplained 2 us y d rest of d taxis refused 2 st0p. due 2 d difference of d fare n other stuff. realise drivin taxi reali isnt an easy j0b. u g0tta stand dose u unreasonable customer stupid attitude. l0ng w0rkin hrs n stuff. *shrugs. thank g0d. daddy isnt driving s0 often n0w. n its like once in a blur moon. =) hMms. after supper we went h0me n i stayed over at g0dpa's place. =)

just wad have i done again right now? shermain lim! u're h0peless!
siGhs. history is gonna repeat again.

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